Comments | joniphonic: Is it wrong...

joniphonic

Is it wrong...

Jan 23, 2006 14:53

...for me to wish that there were *real* telepaths in the world, that could modify, or better yet erase memories that are painful? I know better, of course, because there was *so* much good... but sometimes I just wish I could forget.

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Re: Is it wrong panthrsoul January 23 2006, 20:04:41 UTC

I don't think it's wrong! I can't tell you how many times I wished I could just forget some of the shit that has happened in my life! I also know how those painful experiences/memories have helped shape who I am today and that I would not give up. Hang in there hon, it WILL get better. Love you.

mrbedpost January 23 2006, 22:54:13 UTC

of course its wrong, that would be "unethical"...bastard ;)

atljeepboy January 24 2006, 00:56:53 UTC

Well kinda, think about what you learned and that you wouldnt have learned it and would then need to go through it all over again.

"Those who forget their pasts are doomed to repeat them."

Would you really want to repeat it over and over?

joniphonic January 24 2006, 13:28:48 UTC

I don't want to forget my past or my lessons from this... I just want, sometimes, to forget all the details- little things, a smell, a song, a smile... the list goes on, and frankly I grow weary of those memories tagging along in my present day- I'd like it very much if that would stop... and yes yes, I know that this is a "time heals" situation, and I think it is getting better with each passing of the Sun.

atljeepboy January 25 2006, 01:03:16 UTC

It will.

And I know you wont believe me when I tell you this but later on in life you will look back and actually cherish those memories.

I know call me crazy . . . . . . but it will happen, and then you won't want to lose them.

joniphonic January 25 2006, 13:50:19 UTC

I have memories like that from my first long-term relationship- and it ended horribly... then we became marvelous friends eventually LOL. It's ironic- this breakup has been far less dramatic... and our relationship had no major struggles other than personality differences we couldn't compromise on... and yet, here we are- it feels like we're even *less* likely to salvage any kind of friendship at this point... and I don't know why really? Things would just be way too painful and awkward and confusing right now, I guess. I don't really want to feel so bitter, but right now, it kinda gets me through some of my days.

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hello there... piscesboy311 January 24 2006, 06:36:32 UTC

hi,

I added you as a friend to my list because you are a hot nerd and I think you may like my journal entries as well as the people I am connected to through lj...I live all the way in Phoenix, AZ and work in a shitty office job. Other than that I would say I am a pretty cool person...I have a bf so don't think this is a stalker attempt. I am trying to branch my network of people so I can see what else is outside of my friends latest dramas. I would like to see what other people are like and how they like to share their dysfunction.

Re: hello there... joniphonic January 24 2006, 13:23:48 UTC

Right on! Thanks so much for the compliment- you seem like a cool guy yourself. I'm always interested in meeting new friends as well. Mostly I use my journal to keep track of basically waht's going on without getting *too* personal in public... and to keep up with all my friends. It's a place I can go back to and see where I've been and where I'm going, plus it's simply entertaining. Lately since my breakup in October, it's been very cathartic to get out here and BS about what's going though my head.

Anyway, I'm going to add you as a friend; it's very nice to meet you!

breakup? piscesboy311 January 25 2006, 05:44:00 UTC

How long were you with the guy? LJ is definitely a good way to document life and not in a dramatic way...

Re: breakup? joniphonic January 25 2006, 13:44:22 UTC

It was around two and a half years... and all factors considered, at 33, it was the "true love" for me up to that point- so this has been the roughest breakup I've ever been through, really. Life goes on, though, and I've met someone new (which is weird because I've never jumpped from one thing to another- ever) who is showing me, gradually, that I can keep my heart open and that I'm still worthy of someone's attention and caring (especially my own ( ... )

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