i'm being totally crazy. apparently my own personal brand of grief is potentially debilitating immaturity, impulsive unwise decisions. like not showing up for work today. i was supposed to get the entire weekend off, but they scheduled me the silly shift of 11-2. hopefully they will understand or not care. i have a plan of 'believing i didnt work ( Read more... )

for the past few days, ive been feeling out of it/down in the dumps/weary, as though some shit storm is about to blow through richmond. it turns out i was right ( Read more... )

life is much more pleasant when i am oblivious to my surroundings. i have an impressive ability to not pay attention to what's right in front of me- moldy plates, dirt on the floor, popsicle wrappers, an assortment of empty and half-full beer cans, etc. every once in a while reality penetrates my mental barrier and i become jonny the dirty room ( Read more... )

huhh, i just woke up in my roomates bed (alone), and have no idea how/why.

bollywood night ruled. apparently i had too much fun.

i just stumbled upon (as in the firefox app) the motherlover video. my mom has a pretty fun sense of humor, but if i were to have sent her that on mothers day it might have put a strain on our relationship. incidentally, the past few weeks i have been listening to pop radio in the car to get an idea where mainstream top 40 culture is at right now. ( Read more... )

3 days off in a row. with no deadlines looming over the horizon, i've found myself wanting to make the most out of the days. yesterday was bike around aimlessly day. it was mostly rewarding, though by the early evening i was hungry and tired and lost interest in engaging in social activity. part 2 of day one became lie in my bed eating triscuit ( Read more... )

tentative plans for an ideal world ( Read more... )

fuck drawing crates. scratch that, fuck rendering shit in charcoal as realistically as possible in general. the still life i conjured up last week was too complicated so i've started over, even though its due tomorrow. i should think like today/tonight is the last time i can work on it, especially since i promised rick i would meet up with him ( Read more... )

if i were to get a lot of schoolwork done today and tomorrow, that makes skipping class today ok. right?

i have a really illogical sense of logic.

i havent shaved off my unibrow in over a month, the main reason being i dont have any of those cheap razors, and neither does ryan. i haven't kept it all natural since i was 14 probably. it was the only sort of 'manscaping' i ever did. unless it gets straight up bushy and my eyebrows literally become a brow, i think i am done hiding that little ( Read more... )