So wednesday was a little bit of a better day. Im rebuilding my emotions and all that boo hoo shit. went out to eat at los vega and got left behind at service. So i had to call the school cuz the damn buses left to fucking early. that pisses me off. I HATE look like an idiot. But then i got back to school and hung out with wesley. Then, got home ( Read more... )

I want anyone and everyone (yes that includes you) who reads this to post in here something they would like to do with me someday.

Then post this in your journal to find out what I want to do with you.

thinking should be illegal, or i should go braindead or somehing. Ive spent so much time thinking lately. I havent eaten in days, havent slept, i keep throwing up. There is just so much on my mind that wish i could get rid off. I hate this feeling of insecurity, depression, no self worth and others. If someone has any ways or tips on what to do to ( Read more... )

so everything is at least a little beter now. I talked to wesley for a long time. She took the edge off my pain a little. Im still really upset though. But as of now i will speak no more of it. Its time for a clean slate.

As of this morning, and after much consideration, life sucks. end of story.

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today has been up and down, good and bad. I started out the day stressed, then got better, then wesley got stressed. But, i decided to give her space and let her work it out for herself. I guess it worked, i just really wish i could be there for her when she needs me. i love her so much, and i am sooo lucky to have a GREAT gf like her. But, in ( Read more... )

called wesley and talked about tommorow. Im going to have an awesome b day this year. Lots of things in store. Going with wesley to go see a movie friday, then paintballing with jon or golfing, then dinner. The other stuff isnt that big of a deal though. Im just really super excited to see wesley outside of school. yay!