Im having the best time of my life right now. Everything is working out for me. I love the people that I see every day, I love my job, I love that I've had like 5 best nights of my life in the last 3 months. I can finally see a future for myself in which I would be truly happy. Its amazing ( Read more... )

I dont really know whats going on. It seems like everything is changing. Or its about to ( Read more... )

I really dont care about my life anymore. lol

not in a suicidal way.

Im just not concerned.

things are good, things are bad, its whatever.

I really dont like my mother as a person, though.

I am not one of those people who can do nothing. The times that I have in my life have been the most damaging. Summer of freshman year. I was too young to get a job. I had no friends. I stayed inside, wrote poetry, read books about demons and the end of the world, and sometimes roamed around town looking for direction ( Read more... )

Its pretty ridiculous ( Read more... )

Everything is going really well lately ( Read more... )

Lately I feel like im going to hyperventilate. Most of the time. I feel like im going to turn out like my mother and I will never be happy.

I feel like life will always be boring. And im being trapped into a path that I don't really want.

And I really need clothes.

Also I feel hostile for no reason.

Even though my faith in the christian god has dwindled to a goose egg in the past few years, I still find myself using prayer as a crutch through my lowest times ( Read more... )

I just went through like all of my lj entries and read them, and it was very interesting ( Read more... )

So I didn't get to go to michigan for thanksgiving. My mother didn't want me to, because I had been home for 9 days and had not yet found a job. After I cried to her because of how much I miss my cousin. Appropriate punishment, I think ( Read more... )