And when the ascent starts from unfathomable depth, instead of glorying in the new heights, why is it so difficult not to focus on the length of the fall?
I think because the fall can be so traumatic. My wife and I have had a pretty hellish passed year (lost a pet, lost a family member, lost our first house, had to move 900 miles from our only functional family, wife's first job in the career she studied for was....well, is shitastic a word?). I know it's hard to focus on the positives when so much was lost. When you've been through so much, it's very hard not to look to the past, both the bad times and the good. Which of course makes the bad look that much worse. I suppose the key is to take it like they do in AA, one day at a time. Try to take today on its own merits, good and bad, and look to the future. I know it's not always easy for someone whose intelligent to operate like that.
Ain't that the truth . . . Nuerosis (at least mine) is learning one's lessons TOO well. Sometimes it seems like the more you have, the more you have to lose. I don't conciously look at it that way, but I find my anxiety that I'll end up in a place I've previously been keeps sabotaging me. Now that I have the luxury and space to be affected by the shitty things that have happened to me, my psyche has kicked into emotional purge mode. Blah.
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My wife and I have had a pretty hellish passed year (lost a pet, lost a family member, lost our first house, had to move 900 miles from our only functional family, wife's first job in the career she studied for was....well, is shitastic a word?). I know it's hard to focus on the positives when so much was lost.
When you've been through so much, it's very hard not to look to the past, both the bad times and the good. Which of course makes the bad look that much worse. I suppose the key is to take it like they do in AA, one day at a time. Try to take today on its own merits, good and bad, and look to the future. I know it's not always easy for someone whose intelligent to operate like that.
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