I have so many things rushing around in my head that I'm like "I want to post a journal entry about that", but of course they're all mushed together and I can't straighten them to put them on the page. I'll try to recap the last few days and that will get other thoughts out.
Like I said in my last entry, I saw INXS on Friday night. Scott Stapp was the opening act, but not that impressive. He did 7 songs, and then INXS came out. They did 18, and, geek that I am, I made a list in my cell phone.
1)Suicide Blonde
2)Devil's Party
3)Mystify
4)Hot Girls
5)By My Side
6)Afterglow
7-10)I don't know the names of any of these songs. I think I recognized one or two from the new album, but i'm not sure.
11)Need You Tonight
12)What You Need
13)I don't know this one either.
14)Devil Inside
15)Pretty Vegas
encore
16)New Sensation
17)Never Tear Us Apart
18)Don't change.
Overall a great show, but I'm disappointed they didn't do God's Top 10, my favorite track from the new album. However, we did get to hear Never Tear Us Apart, which is "our song" and was one of the first songs we danced to at our wedding. Awesome.
Saturday I worked 12-6 and did shit all in sales until 5:30, when I sold a $1900 ring. Way to go Josh, and made up for my $10 day earlier in the week. Then we went to a dinner for a christening, and I got to hold two babies and feel the springs on my biological clock snap. I'm such a girl, and my wife is the practical one. I want a child so bad, but understand my wife's insistence that we need to be settled into a house of our own before we start a family.
Sunday we had rehearsal for our Fringe play, and I have a ton I want to say about that, but never seem to be able to get the words out. The Fringe itself is always fantastic and is my favorite time of the year, but the getting to there is always so hard. I'm not in a show again this year. The last time I appeared on a Fringe stage was 2002, and I miss it. Working backstage in production is fulfilling, and I still feel like it's MY show, but to be out there in front of people....what a feeling! To not have it, it's an emptiness. However, I'm not going to go out and audition for other things during the year, or do anybody else's show on the Fringe. It's not the same.
After my rehearsal, my wife decided to attend a rehearsal for her play, and I went out to meet some friends for dinner. These 2 guys and I were inseparable in high school, but we lost touch afterwards and it's not the same anymore. We still laughed alot, but it was different. Also, I ended up really depressed. One of them is moving to Vancouver in 4 days, just for the hell of it, and spent a few weeks in China earlier this year, just for the hell of it. The other one is moving to Ontario for Grad school in 2 months, and just spent 2 weeks in China for his work. Me, I work retail in a mall and am just barely scraping by while trying to get a house. I feel jealous of their freedom, and opportunities. I told this to someone today, who asked "Do you regret getting married?" and I don't at all. i just wish my life was better. I have a high school education because I fucked up every sort of post-secondary education I tried taking. 8 years in different universities and colleges and no good marks to show for it.
On the house front, no news. When my in-laws sell their lake cabin, they've promised us a cut of the proceeds, which will immediately go to a downpayment. However, this has been promised for the last 3 summers and the sale just isn't happening. We don't want to stay where we are, and can't for much longer. Theresa wants her house back eventually so she can fix it up and sell it. My life is so fucked. I feel myself spiralling further down into depression, and I recognize the feelings but I don't know what I can do about it.
Well, this certainly degenerated downwards, but I feel much better getting it all out. Thanks for listening, random reader.