im stealing from the book of shmey. im going to do this whole letter thing. if we are all going to stay friends through our lives, we need to get shit off out chest and say how we feel. i hope yall dont get to upset, but it is time.

im starting a diet today, from now on i will go to the guym every day, and eat less
that is all, cause im done with looking like this, then when im hot, ill be able to get a guy
and be able to say no to the ones that dont want me like this.

take me for what i am
who i was ment to be
and if you give a damn
take me baby or leave me.

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i made a realization tonight, i dont want just anybody, i want a somebody.

well today sucked, somehow i lost my spanish book from out of my back pack to my desk?? what? so i either look for it, ho pe that someone says they acedently graped it, or i go buy a new one. so that suckes balls. then my direct encounter with the arts class makes me wana scream cause the people suck at life in there. i am sooo dont with everything ( Read more... )

i miss chris. the chris that i knew, not chris wilams, but my chris, the one i honestly think i might of loved and that said the loved me. the chris who made me feel soo good just to hear them say hi, the chris who when i was talking to them nothing matterd, the chris who when i walk by certain stores i wana cry, the chris i think about soo much i ( Read more... )

so it appears that i feel that i have lost my self, if i ever knew who that was to begin with. and i got hit with a wave of depression wedsday night as well soo no fun. I just dont really know who i am anymore, what i want out of life, how to get it, its just all confuesing. i just wana lay and cry, but i cant, cause i dont relaly feel i dont know ( Read more... )

im so excited about tonight, well its the outspoken meeting which i think will be fun, i just hope im not geting my hopes up ya know? and i think i gained weight but yeah going to losse it agien, cause my ass worked to hard to lose it in the first place,, soo lets get moveing, and also yes i wana look good, but not just to get a man. like joseph ( Read more... )

well to start off i hate food. and i need to lern to controll myself. i ate like subway and i fell sooo fat rt now. arg. well any way, i find my self thinking if people are my frineds because of me, or because of the people i know. or possable because of what i am willing to do for friends. It just seems really strange to me rt now. i dont know ( Read more... )