it's in the wind
ok...screw this all... so heres the thing, fuck this shit, i'm going to come out and say shit and talk about stuff cause what ever, i want to, so, whatever....fuck, even after putting that down i'm too nervous to figure out where to start...bah....i like dressing up, i like feeling pretty, and taking the time to put myself together how i want, but how i want is weird, i've been playing with the thought of male dolls, theres chicks out there that i would definatly say that they're dolls, all done up pretty, so why the hell can't a guy be a doll, not in the sense of being a chick, just a guy that gets done up and pretty, i like getting all done up and pretty, sure how i want to get dolled up is odd, so what, i like thigh highs and gater belts, shaved legs, corsets, and skirts, makeup(maybe, want to figure more out to know), tutu's(soon)...and on the surface it might seem like i'm trying to dress up like a chick, but no, i'm not, i'm just dressing up like a guy, but that just happens to be what this guy likes getting dressed up in, and it's nothing about my sexuality, if i'm a cross dresser or anything, it's just clothing, i'm still portraying myself as a straight male, it's just a straight male that likes wearing and feels sexy in the above mentioned clothes, it's about the power to dress however i want, and to have the freedom to be comfortable going out how i want to look............so yeah, now heres how my day was....mmm...kat is yummy, she hung out for a long time today, it was good, jynx came along too, kat hasn't come by with out him, she's shy and stuff, it's cute, she sat close again, i actually made eye contact and held it while talking with her....decided to wear my thigh highs with the seam up the back, but didn't put any socks on, jynx noticed and let out a little gleeful giggle and exclaimed, your wearing nylons, thats awesome....kat's ears picked up, i corrected jynx, told him they were thigh highs, and kat went oh, and i showed her the seam up the back, and she told me it was pretty(teehee)...then she went, wait, thigh highs, does that mean your wearing a garter too?....yep, that it does, and i got and even bigger oooh for that....jynx left for like an hour, it was nice hanging out with just her, we're both so shy and acward, spent alot of the time not talking while she sat close and we made hair accesory sculptures.....she left though, it was good seeing her.....carly dropped by too, within half an hour of kat and jynx leaving which was nice, big fat joints and belly full of cookie dough.....mmmmmm.....carly notcied the thigh highs too and said she liked them, that was happy....it's been a pretty good day for me i'd say.