Life happens.  People die.  People are born.  Sometimes there is pain.  Feelings come and go.  Who feels this?  Who notices that which is feeling?  Where is the observer?  She is nowhere.  She is no one.  She isn't.  

Thirteen months and three weeks clean and sober.
Real job with an awesome non-profit organization, that pays real money.
Financial advisor to advise financially.
Still mutually in love with Amy Renee, more and more every day.
Back in Texas where I was raised, building community like I intended.
Considering a degree in music theory and composition.
Miss ( Read more... )

I'm going to look for a modest, reliable diesel engine vehicle so I can run it on Bio Diesel. Yeah!
There's a yahoo group about making your own Bio Diesel from spent veggie oil. Find it if you're interested.

Knowing in advance that my livejournal public consists at least partially of writers with editors' eyes, I title my entry to jibe you. Jibe jibe. Ha. Consider yourself jibben, O, People of The Words.

My understanding of physics is dissolved by my unfolding, expanding practice of mindfulness and intentionality.  It's a fun game to describe it as a ( Read more... )

Time again to be clear about what I want to experience, to focus on what I intend.

I am open and ready for a home in San Francisco for me and my dog Reuben. A large home with a few people living together would be great. I'd like to find the perfect place, maybe a warehouse arrangement where we can control performance space when we want. I want the ( Read more... )

Expecting some wonderful financial news tomorrow. Musing today about what it might be.

Almost turned tail and ran this weekend. Glad I stayed.
Almost invited my past back to haunt me, to tease me, to remind me why I have moved on. But I didn't. I don't need reminders that push me away from where I've been; I have enticing opportunities right here, ( Read more... )

sublimate

adj : made pure [syn: purified, refined] n : the product of vaporization of a solid v 1: direct energy or urges into useful activities 2: make more subtle or refined [syn: rarefy, subtilize] 3: remove impurities from, increase the concentration of, and separate through the process of distillation; "purify the water" [syn: purify, make ( Read more... )

Enjoy List
-make an altar to the life I am creating
-journal and visualize the opportunities I am ready to step into
-play my cello on the balcony facing the mountain
-entertain the cats who are always ready to play
-decorate Amy's shelf in my room
-write another love letter
-decide which movies in the Gay and Lesbian Film Festival I'd like to see
-plan a ( Read more... )

Thank you, Universe, for my experience. 
Thank you, Self, for my life.
Thanks be to Me, Us, Source of Spirit, Magic, Wonderment...

I enjoy these things already, and would be so happy to experience more-
- being moved at my gongyo recitation morning and evening
- cashola in and out and in and out
- feeling welcome and celebrated by the city of Saint ( Read more... )

My perfect morning goes like this:

I wake up naturally because I've had plenty of sleep. She is smiling at me, ready for morning loving. I sit up and light my candle and incense, arrange the tiny stolen wildflowers on my altar, offer my devotional prayer and meditation. I roll out of bed onto the yoga mat. Somewhere in there, someone (maybe even ( Read more... )