Crazy In Love ( Or Just Crazy )
Title: Crazy In Love ( Or Just Crazy )
Pairing: Jongin x Kyungsoo
Rating: pg-13
Genre(s): Angst, drama, slight! obsessive/possessive Jongin
Length/Word Count: Drabble, 684 words
Author's Note: Broken!kaisoo, chansoo
Summary: Kyungsoo says it's over but Jongin knows it isn't, at least not on his part.
"For some reason, I'm attracted to you."
The air is thick, the tension filling the air between the two as they stand across from each other and stare. They can only stare, their lips quivering and brains wheeling because their both confused - no, hopeful.
"Jongin, I-"
Jongin's hands curl up into fists and a bullet of sweat rolls down from his forehead, curving with his defined jaw. It's not hot enough to make him sweat but he doesn't want to admit how scared he is, the dread of being rejected - again.
Jongin's Adams apple bobs up and down as he swallows the thickness in the back of his throat, it doesn't leave and the foul taste that comes with it only makes it worse.
He's sure he has goose bumps running up his arms when Kyungsoo slips a tear and Jongin wants nothing but to wipe it away. But he can't because they've been in this position before, only this time that tear can only be wiped by someone else. It had been Jongin's choice then but only Kyungsoo can decide now.
Jongin already knows he's lost to Chanyeol but he won't dare admit it, not to Kyungsoo, not to the one who still has his heart.
"I know, Soo. I messed up and I messed up real good," Jongin has his hands in his hair now, tugging peach pink strands and twisting them around his fingers out of frustration, with himself and his feelings.
Kyungsoo dips his head into his hands, Jongin watching with a certain painful gaze that drags his shoulders down with his never-ending thoughts. Tears continue to slip out and Jongin attempts to take a step and he makes it almost so by reaching out a hand before he stops himself.
"I can't help but be in love with you, Kyungsoo."
Kyungsoo glances up and although there are tears mixed with snot and a little bit of regret etched into the noises that come out of his mouth in sobs, he's still able to pull up a smile.
He knows Jongin loves his smile the most.
Jongin's heart crushes to pieces only this time Kyungsoo isn't there to pick them up. There is no tape to piece the shards together and Jongin can hear his answer but he's still stuck where he is, feet planted to the ground. He's still scared, doesn't want to understand that it really is over.
"You need to move on Jongin. I don't love you anymore."
Even if Jongin's heart had been recollected and stuck together with Elmer's glue it somehow beats again, only in the most painful way. A tear slips out of his eye too, and somehow amidst the tears and the irony of the situation he begins to laugh boisterously, hunched over and holding his weak knees.
Jongin tries to collect himself but its of no use, hands running wild through his hair and he's laughing like a mad-man.
Kyungsoo is staring ahead at him with uncertainty, Jongin can feel the way Kyungsoo stiffens, becomes tense and takes a step back.
"Jongin, you need help."
"No, Kyungsoo. I need you. That's all I've ever needed."
"You're never going to get better if you keep trying. I'm sorry, I can't- Not anymore, Jongin. You're dragging me down, I-"
"You finally said It."
Kyungsoo pauses and holds his breath as Jongin steps closer, tears long gone but the stain of red on his cheeks from the emotions that were clearly too much.
"All this time and now you tell me?" Jongin tips his head back and exhales aloud, quite obnoxiously, and Kyungsoo's heart drops at the way Jongin's shoulders shake, chest tightening and shriveling up.
Kyungsoo takes another step back.
"You needed to hear it, there's no point in keeping it from you anymore. You're crazy, Jongin. I can't do this anymore, please just leave us alone."
Kyungsoo rolls on his heels and twice more quickly than he had arrived he was gone, out of sight before Jongin could comprehend the situation.
"It's not over, Do Kyungsoo. Not until I get the last word."
A/N: duun duun DUNNN.... wut did I just write.. tell me what you think! Should there be a sequel ( maybe I'll put a bit of horror/gore/abuse/etc. )
Pairing: Jongin x Kyungsoo
Rating: pg-13
Genre(s): Angst, drama, slight! obsessive/possessive Jongin
Length/Word Count: Drabble, 684 words
Author's Note: Broken!kaisoo, chansoo
Summary: Kyungsoo says it's over but Jongin knows it isn't, at least not on his part.
"For some reason, I'm attracted to you."
The air is thick, the tension filling the air between the two as they stand across from each other and stare. They can only stare, their lips quivering and brains wheeling because their both confused - no, hopeful.
"Jongin, I-"
Jongin's hands curl up into fists and a bullet of sweat rolls down from his forehead, curving with his defined jaw. It's not hot enough to make him sweat but he doesn't want to admit how scared he is, the dread of being rejected - again.
Jongin's Adams apple bobs up and down as he swallows the thickness in the back of his throat, it doesn't leave and the foul taste that comes with it only makes it worse.
He's sure he has goose bumps running up his arms when Kyungsoo slips a tear and Jongin wants nothing but to wipe it away. But he can't because they've been in this position before, only this time that tear can only be wiped by someone else. It had been Jongin's choice then but only Kyungsoo can decide now.
Jongin already knows he's lost to Chanyeol but he won't dare admit it, not to Kyungsoo, not to the one who still has his heart.
"I know, Soo. I messed up and I messed up real good," Jongin has his hands in his hair now, tugging peach pink strands and twisting them around his fingers out of frustration, with himself and his feelings.
Kyungsoo dips his head into his hands, Jongin watching with a certain painful gaze that drags his shoulders down with his never-ending thoughts. Tears continue to slip out and Jongin attempts to take a step and he makes it almost so by reaching out a hand before he stops himself.
"I can't help but be in love with you, Kyungsoo."
Kyungsoo glances up and although there are tears mixed with snot and a little bit of regret etched into the noises that come out of his mouth in sobs, he's still able to pull up a smile.
He knows Jongin loves his smile the most.
Jongin's heart crushes to pieces only this time Kyungsoo isn't there to pick them up. There is no tape to piece the shards together and Jongin can hear his answer but he's still stuck where he is, feet planted to the ground. He's still scared, doesn't want to understand that it really is over.
"You need to move on Jongin. I don't love you anymore."
Even if Jongin's heart had been recollected and stuck together with Elmer's glue it somehow beats again, only in the most painful way. A tear slips out of his eye too, and somehow amidst the tears and the irony of the situation he begins to laugh boisterously, hunched over and holding his weak knees.
Jongin tries to collect himself but its of no use, hands running wild through his hair and he's laughing like a mad-man.
Kyungsoo is staring ahead at him with uncertainty, Jongin can feel the way Kyungsoo stiffens, becomes tense and takes a step back.
"Jongin, you need help."
"No, Kyungsoo. I need you. That's all I've ever needed."
"You're never going to get better if you keep trying. I'm sorry, I can't- Not anymore, Jongin. You're dragging me down, I-"
"You finally said It."
Kyungsoo pauses and holds his breath as Jongin steps closer, tears long gone but the stain of red on his cheeks from the emotions that were clearly too much.
"All this time and now you tell me?" Jongin tips his head back and exhales aloud, quite obnoxiously, and Kyungsoo's heart drops at the way Jongin's shoulders shake, chest tightening and shriveling up.
Kyungsoo takes another step back.
"You needed to hear it, there's no point in keeping it from you anymore. You're crazy, Jongin. I can't do this anymore, please just leave us alone."
Kyungsoo rolls on his heels and twice more quickly than he had arrived he was gone, out of sight before Jongin could comprehend the situation.
"It's not over, Do Kyungsoo. Not until I get the last word."
A/N: duun duun DUNNN.... wut did I just write.. tell me what you think! Should there be a sequel ( maybe I'll put a bit of horror/gore/abuse/etc. )