I want to turn around, but I can't come back (8/17)
Title: I want to turn around, but I can't come back! ~ Chapter 8
Pairing: Ryoda, Junda (for later chapters)
Genre: angst, romance, fluff(?)
Raiting: PG-13
Beta: kat_h_chan
Summary: Tatsuya loves Ryo, Ryo wants sex.
Disclaimer: I don't own them!
A/N: I know this is sooo super late! I apologize a thousand times!!!!
Ryo was confused. He was really, really confused. Maybe he had never been as confused as he was now in all his life so far. He felt like he was thrown into some extremely strange kind of movie or better said dream. What the hell had gotten into him to be nice to Tatsuya, even to greet him when they were meeting in the hallways? Normally he would have ignored the other. At least when his mood was good. Whenever there were days on which Ryo's mood was not that good or worse he would have thrown rude or even mean insults on that prissy princess. But now he was being friendly. What the hell was going on with him? Okay, that dumbfounded expression of Taguchi had been great, but that couldn't be the reason that Ryo was behaving like that. He angrily stomped to his manager's office. Why couldn't he even understand himself? But then suddenly his thoughts were back at Tatsuya's smiling face and he couldn't help but let a smile cover his own face, too.
*
“Nishikido-san?”
Ryo snapped out of his trance-like state of mind.
“Sorry! I...I didn't listen, I'm sorry!” he apologized at his manager.
“Really, we are having a pretty important meeting about your new drama and you're not even listening to what I'm saying!” the other man scolded. “I would be angry if there wasn't...”
“If there wasn't what?” Ryo asked him, curious about what his manager was talking about.
“Well...if there wasn't that happy smile on your face! You look so content at the moment. Has something good happened to you?”
Ryo's eyes snapped open. As far as he remembered he had been thinking about Tatsuya at that moment. And he was looking so happy when he thought of him? That couldn't be true!
“It's nothing...” he mumbled and tried hard to concentrate on the meeting.
*
On lunch break Ryo was walking around the building without any real reason why. He was too confused about himself to be able to work properly and he hated to get scolded, so he had figured out that he needed to do something to regain control over himself again. Not only that he was actually thinking about a man, it was Ueda Tatsuya of all people! And he seemed to be happy when he thought of him! If anybody found out about that, it would be for sure the most embarrassing thing that had ever happened to Ryo. Maybe he could accept that he was gay or something, but falling for that guy? Never!
Ryo was so deep in his thoughts that he didn't even look up when he walked around the corner of the corridor and bumped into a certain someone.
“Ryo-chan!!!” the other exclaimed happily and hugged Ryo tight.
“J-Jin? What the hell are you doing here?” Ryo asked with the bit of oxygen that was left in his lungs after Jin had let him go.
“Well, I'm still a Johnny's right? So I'm allowed to be here!” Jin stated proudly.
“Sure...I meant what are you doing here, right now?”
“I was looking for Ryo-chan! I wondered whether we can go out for lunch. I feel like I haven't met you in ages!” Jin smiled widely at Ryo.
“You're exaggerating.” Ryo mumbled. “But okay, let's go for lunch.” he said and smiled at Jin. Maybe this would finally make him stop thinking of Tatsuya.
*
“Ryo-chan?” Jin tilted his head and looked at Ryo confused.
“Huh??” For the second time that day Ryo had to come back from his journey of thinking of Tatsuya and that night with him.
“You seem like you don't really listen to what I'm saying...” Jin pouted.
Oh no, not again! What the hell is going on with me? Ryo thought.
“I...I'm sorry Jin! I'll listen now!” Ryo smiled sheepishly.
“I doubt that!” Jin mumbled lowly. “I mean you're face...it was like...”
“Like what?” Ryo snapped.
“Ryo-chan...” Jin was coming closer. “Could it be...well maybe...could it be that you're...in love?”
“Ehhhhhh?” Ryo screamed. “No...no! Of course I'm not! I can't be! No!” He was too shocked that Jin was thinking stuff like that when Ryo was thinking of Tatsuya. Did he look that happy? Did he look like being in love? That couldn't be true!
“Hush Ryo...don't panic.” Jin laughed. “It's not that I believe you more the louder you scream.”
Ryo pouted at that. “I'm not in love...I can't be, really Jin it's not like that!”
“Oh you can't be? Why's that?” Jin asked, interested about the issue.
“Stop asking stuff like that...it simply can't be, okay?” Ryo cut off Jin's asking and was not willing to talk about it again.
*
After the break Ryo was back in the Kanjani dressing room. He was sure that he couldn't go on like this and so he stayed in the empty room. This was stupid. He was behaving that strange that even Jin thought he could read Ryo's feelings. Who was that baka to think stuff like that? He wasn't in love with Tatsuya. Ryo had had a great night with him, but that had nothing to do with that guy...maybe...maybe because he was a guy? Maybe having sex with a guy was just more fulfilling to Ryo recently than having sex with a girl? Well, at least guys are much tighter than girls. That would explain this stupid situation! Ryo thought proudly. It wasn't about Tatsuya, it was about all the guys. Ryo could live with that. As long as he'd stop thinking of Tatsuya.
At that very moment the door was opened and Pi came in.
“Ryo...have you been here for a long time? I was looking for you!”
“Pi...come on over...” Ryo mumbled lowly and watched Pi walk towards him, obviously wondering about the others tone.
It was true that Ryo didn't think too much when it came to sex. It was also true that he didn't care too much about his partner or at least he thought so. And so it was true that all Ryo was thinking about was to prove his point he had earlier thought about.
So there was nothing more inside his mind when he pulled Pi close and pressed and open mouthed kiss onto his friend's lips. He ignored Pi's shocked expression and his wide eyes, his struggles to break free and his muffled tries to say something because Ryo knew that sooner or later Pi would forget about protesting and give in to Ryo's expert ministrations. There was no other way, since Ryo knew the way he had to brush Pi's nipples to make him moan in delight. He knew how to touch his still clothed cock and make Pi forget everything else. And when Ryo knew that Pi had forgotten all around himself except from lust, he started to lick and suck his skin and lips, desperately searching for the wonderful and satisfying feelings Tatsuya had given him. He didn't know that the more he touched Pi the further those feelings were pulled away from him.
Pairing: Ryoda, Junda (for later chapters)
Genre: angst, romance, fluff(?)
Raiting: PG-13
Beta: kat_h_chan
Summary: Tatsuya loves Ryo, Ryo wants sex.
Disclaimer: I don't own them!
A/N: I know this is sooo super late! I apologize a thousand times!!!!
Ryo was confused. He was really, really confused. Maybe he had never been as confused as he was now in all his life so far. He felt like he was thrown into some extremely strange kind of movie or better said dream. What the hell had gotten into him to be nice to Tatsuya, even to greet him when they were meeting in the hallways? Normally he would have ignored the other. At least when his mood was good. Whenever there were days on which Ryo's mood was not that good or worse he would have thrown rude or even mean insults on that prissy princess. But now he was being friendly. What the hell was going on with him? Okay, that dumbfounded expression of Taguchi had been great, but that couldn't be the reason that Ryo was behaving like that. He angrily stomped to his manager's office. Why couldn't he even understand himself? But then suddenly his thoughts were back at Tatsuya's smiling face and he couldn't help but let a smile cover his own face, too.
*
“Nishikido-san?”
Ryo snapped out of his trance-like state of mind.
“Sorry! I...I didn't listen, I'm sorry!” he apologized at his manager.
“Really, we are having a pretty important meeting about your new drama and you're not even listening to what I'm saying!” the other man scolded. “I would be angry if there wasn't...”
“If there wasn't what?” Ryo asked him, curious about what his manager was talking about.
“Well...if there wasn't that happy smile on your face! You look so content at the moment. Has something good happened to you?”
Ryo's eyes snapped open. As far as he remembered he had been thinking about Tatsuya at that moment. And he was looking so happy when he thought of him? That couldn't be true!
“It's nothing...” he mumbled and tried hard to concentrate on the meeting.
*
On lunch break Ryo was walking around the building without any real reason why. He was too confused about himself to be able to work properly and he hated to get scolded, so he had figured out that he needed to do something to regain control over himself again. Not only that he was actually thinking about a man, it was Ueda Tatsuya of all people! And he seemed to be happy when he thought of him! If anybody found out about that, it would be for sure the most embarrassing thing that had ever happened to Ryo. Maybe he could accept that he was gay or something, but falling for that guy? Never!
Ryo was so deep in his thoughts that he didn't even look up when he walked around the corner of the corridor and bumped into a certain someone.
“Ryo-chan!!!” the other exclaimed happily and hugged Ryo tight.
“J-Jin? What the hell are you doing here?” Ryo asked with the bit of oxygen that was left in his lungs after Jin had let him go.
“Well, I'm still a Johnny's right? So I'm allowed to be here!” Jin stated proudly.
“Sure...I meant what are you doing here, right now?”
“I was looking for Ryo-chan! I wondered whether we can go out for lunch. I feel like I haven't met you in ages!” Jin smiled widely at Ryo.
“You're exaggerating.” Ryo mumbled. “But okay, let's go for lunch.” he said and smiled at Jin. Maybe this would finally make him stop thinking of Tatsuya.
*
“Ryo-chan?” Jin tilted his head and looked at Ryo confused.
“Huh??” For the second time that day Ryo had to come back from his journey of thinking of Tatsuya and that night with him.
“You seem like you don't really listen to what I'm saying...” Jin pouted.
Oh no, not again! What the hell is going on with me? Ryo thought.
“I...I'm sorry Jin! I'll listen now!” Ryo smiled sheepishly.
“I doubt that!” Jin mumbled lowly. “I mean you're face...it was like...”
“Like what?” Ryo snapped.
“Ryo-chan...” Jin was coming closer. “Could it be...well maybe...could it be that you're...in love?”
“Ehhhhhh?” Ryo screamed. “No...no! Of course I'm not! I can't be! No!” He was too shocked that Jin was thinking stuff like that when Ryo was thinking of Tatsuya. Did he look that happy? Did he look like being in love? That couldn't be true!
“Hush Ryo...don't panic.” Jin laughed. “It's not that I believe you more the louder you scream.”
Ryo pouted at that. “I'm not in love...I can't be, really Jin it's not like that!”
“Oh you can't be? Why's that?” Jin asked, interested about the issue.
“Stop asking stuff like that...it simply can't be, okay?” Ryo cut off Jin's asking and was not willing to talk about it again.
*
After the break Ryo was back in the Kanjani dressing room. He was sure that he couldn't go on like this and so he stayed in the empty room. This was stupid. He was behaving that strange that even Jin thought he could read Ryo's feelings. Who was that baka to think stuff like that? He wasn't in love with Tatsuya. Ryo had had a great night with him, but that had nothing to do with that guy...maybe...maybe because he was a guy? Maybe having sex with a guy was just more fulfilling to Ryo recently than having sex with a girl? Well, at least guys are much tighter than girls. That would explain this stupid situation! Ryo thought proudly. It wasn't about Tatsuya, it was about all the guys. Ryo could live with that. As long as he'd stop thinking of Tatsuya.
At that very moment the door was opened and Pi came in.
“Ryo...have you been here for a long time? I was looking for you!”
“Pi...come on over...” Ryo mumbled lowly and watched Pi walk towards him, obviously wondering about the others tone.
It was true that Ryo didn't think too much when it came to sex. It was also true that he didn't care too much about his partner or at least he thought so. And so it was true that all Ryo was thinking about was to prove his point he had earlier thought about.
So there was nothing more inside his mind when he pulled Pi close and pressed and open mouthed kiss onto his friend's lips. He ignored Pi's shocked expression and his wide eyes, his struggles to break free and his muffled tries to say something because Ryo knew that sooner or later Pi would forget about protesting and give in to Ryo's expert ministrations. There was no other way, since Ryo knew the way he had to brush Pi's nipples to make him moan in delight. He knew how to touch his still clothed cock and make Pi forget everything else. And when Ryo knew that Pi had forgotten all around himself except from lust, he started to lick and suck his skin and lips, desperately searching for the wonderful and satisfying feelings Tatsuya had given him. He didn't know that the more he touched Pi the further those feelings were pulled away from him.