i'm leaving here in a few hours to move back to cincinnati.  and as much as i can't wait and am excited to be back in clifton, i can't shake off the feeling that i'll miss this old place too.  I KNOW, i've complained all summer about being useless here and having less than a few friends, i know, but i've pulled a classic "joy" and am getting ( Read more... )

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well im ok now.  i just realized how ridiculous my last post was.  i guess that's late-night insanity for ya.

antsy.  can't sleep.  i just have to do something.

journal.  write a song.  drink. i dont know, something.

this is why i was such a destructive person before.  im just-gaahh!!!

i feel like i'm outgrowing this thing. it's becoming less and less important to me. ...but i'll keep it since i know i'll probably have to use it during my dark days in cincinnati.

well, i haven't been up to anything exciting.  as much as i want to reach for more, i'm pretty content in life.  more so than i think i've ever been.  i feel like i'm ( Read more... )

so i've been back in louisville....i don't really know what i last posted, but anyway gsa is over and now i'm here trying to feel out this place i once called home.  but things have actually been better than i expected in most ways.  i didn't get to go to new york for reasons i don't even want to talk about, but  it ended up working out for the ( Read more... )

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so i'm here in lexington and it's not as enjoyable as i expected. in fact, the days drag so slowly that i sometimes turn myself on auto pilot and end up seeming offensive or indifferent. i will not count down the days until i get to leave here because it will seem so far away and will cause further distress. i'm just blessed with really ( Read more... )

there's so much to miss right now.

i don't want to go to lexington...

and you can hold my hand if you need it, and if you don't, then hold it for me