Barely hanging on
I'm feeling incredibly low and suicidal at the moment. I'm hoping I can come through it soon enough, but right now I'm not coping well.
I'm contemplating just going through and removing all of my presence from the internet. Deleting my fanfic accounts, my livejournal, my tumblr, and becoming a complete lurker, but I think that might be too drastic.
Goddammit. Why are so many anons such bullies?
My home life is stressful, I have a family member slowly dying from cancer, and financial problems that make living a terrifying concept.
I've been on here for eleven years, but every day just feels a little harder. Livejournal was supposed to be my safe haven--and it was for a while--but then I caught the attention of people, and I can't take the negativity. I know I suck, I don't need to be constantly reminded of this fact by a bunch of people who will never meet me.