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only_xander in joystick_hand

i'm such a spaz

Aug 02, 2005 22:59

Sighing deeply, I looked down at my hand, where he was holding the ice to, and I felt like a big jackass. I can't do anything without getting hurt. And this time it really hurt. My hand was throbbing and my dignity was a tad bruised. Chewing shyly on my bottom lip, my good hand held the burnt one close to my body. "Ya know, you'd think that I ( Read more... )

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__storyteller__ August 5 2005, 20:54:34 UTC

"Okay we should jsut get rid of everything electrical for you. Or, you know, just learn how to cook or something." I said as I laughed and tended to his wounded hand.....again.

"Ya know, you'd think that I would learn by now."

Aint that the truth. I mean come on now! But...we learn from our mistakes...well hopefully he did. Cause crippled Xander...not a fan of.

"Thanks, though. It's nice to have someone run to my aide, makes me feel...loved."

"It's no trouble, I'm staring to think you're sort of accident prone getting yourself into...."

Wait a minute. He said loved did he mean to say that? I mean...love? I looked up into his eyes forgetting that I stopped in mid sentence and was still holding his hand. He was looking at me already with a blush in his cheeks.

Too cute.

"Well...um...now that we've got this taken care of, we still up for movie night? Feels like we've been standing here forever!" I said trying to avoid the topic that kind of slipped out of his completely lucious lips.

only_xander August 7 2005, 01:11:33 UTC

"Yeah, I think take-out is a better plan though," I said with a smile. Apaprently I can't handle anything that heats up food. I mean, if I can't use a microwave without getting hurt, than I might just want to avoid stoves and ovens all together.

And that was when I noticed that Andrew completely stopped talking mid-sentance. Happened to be right after I said...yeah. Ok, quiet is not good. My mind went numb and I didn't even realize he's started talking again.

Taking a deep breath, I kept my eyes locked on his. "Andrew? You uh...hesitated there for a bit...uh...yeah...why?" Ok, I know why, but I need to hear it from him.

__storyteller__ August 7 2005, 01:32:38 UTC

Why did I pause? I mean just because he said the L-word is no cause for alarm...

But I looked up and say that he was concerned. I looked in his eyes and I said quietly...

"You said love. Being loved. Thats...thats never happened to me. Nobody ever loves me."

And it's true...Warren never really loved me, he just used me to get to the slayer. I still had trouble getting over that and Warren's long dead.

only_xander August 7 2005, 01:38:50 UTC

Well, I did say it, didn't I? Did it mean I loved him? Or that I felt loved when I was with him. I mean, how could I love somebody who I've only admitted to liking today. But, I could have loved him in the back of my mind.

Oh hell, I don't know. All I know is that he makes my heart race like Anya never did. And dammit, if that means it's love, than so be it!

Reaching out with my good hand, completely forgetting about the pain in my other, I lightly stroked his cheek with the pad of my thumb. "Well, don't know why no one ever did. Cuz...your just so damned loveable." I smiled at him, shyly, before bringing my lips to his.

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andrew_sidekick August 13 2005, 23:08:11 UTC

"I'd promise you the world,"

I winced as he said that, hoping that he wasn't lying.

I looked into his eyes and teared up a little, he was looking right through me and I didn't mind but I had to be sure.

"I need...you to promise me...that you won't break my heart. It's been hurt so...so many times before and...and I can't take it anymore. I'm giving my heart to you. Please don't break it." I sad as I started to cry, thinking about Warren, and all the others before him. I knew that Xander would be different, thats why I was telling him this. But I wanted to be absolutely sure. My herat couldn't take one more good stomp.

only_xander August 13 2005, 23:19:34 UTC

Oh gods. The tears in his eyes. I caused this. What the hell did I do to him? Seeing Andrew cry is the last thing on my list of to do's for the day...or ever.

My hand tentatively reached out and wiped away his tears, my thumb stroking his cheek lightly. "Won't break your heart. Won't bend it, or hurt it in any way. It's my greatest treasure. Going to treat it with the best care possible. I promise you that." When I said all that, I held his gaze, showing that I was not lying, only true caring could be seen.

He was special. There was no way in hell that I was going to hurt him. Never would. And if something happened to him...well...that would not end well.

andrew_sidekick August 13 2005, 23:31:15 UTC

Thats all I needed. All I needed to make sure my heart was safe.

"Won't break your heart. Won't bend it, or hurt it in any way. It's my greatest treasure. Going to treat it with the best care possible. I promise you that."

And I didn't haveto question him, I knew that he was telling the truth. He loved me, and I loved him. God this day was weird and extremely fast. With that I smiled at him through my tear glazed eyes and kissed him lightly.

"Thank you." I said and buried my head back into his chest and resumed watching the movie. Ironically, it was at the infamous 'upside-down' kiss part between Spiderman and Mary-Jane. I looked up to Xander with a smirk on my face and raised my eyebrows in a questionable fashion.

only_xander August 14 2005, 00:34:48 UTC

Man, the look in his eyes at my words. Was so...beautiful. Was a certain type of happy, one I've never seen before. Never ever before saw that look in Anya's eyes. Guess that says something about our relationship after all.

The soft kiss was great too. Was just...perfect. I sighed happily when he snuggled back against me and turned his attention back to the movie.

It was when he looked up at me like he did that it caught me off guard. I smirked at him. "Why Andrew, you seem to be looking rather mischievous right now."

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