I need out.

[jrstraus]

I want out I can't do this i wasn't cut out for this shit.  I spend all my time in a battle of wills with my toddler, yelling at him mostly ineffectually, and on tenterhooks waiting for the baby to wake up so he can scream and I can calm him ineffectually while yelling at my toddler until they're asleep.  Then I have to do all the million other

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[sugar_spun]

I wish I had something useful to tell you.

It is temporary, even though it doesn't feel that way, is all I have, and you'll get through it somehow.

*hugs*

[chtitroll]

Big hugs! Why do we have to be so far away?

[hannibalv]

How can I help? Call/text/e-mail/smoke signal. No job too small.

[adickers]

If it helps, I know you're not the first mom to feel this way... (despite all the "enjoy this time" sayings) In just a few months I'll be able to commiserate much better :) -- although obviously I'll only know the 1/2 of it. Hang in there! It is really only a handful of days until you reach the 6 week mark w/ K. Maybe things will get a little easier from then on???

[hssst]

DAmnit! I'm coming over to do laundry and clean your floors!!! John too. I just volunteered him.

[jrstraus]

Thanks. Although Friday was very tough, the last couple of days have been much better. I'm making an effort to stay off the internet during the day b/c it seems to just distract me, and I'm trying to find my groove. It's helping a bit, I think.
And no worries, the laundry is getting done, and the floors are clean (thanks to my mom's gift of a cleaning lady last thursday). I'm taking deep breaths and eagerly anticipating the arrival of a day when I can get out of the house by myself for more than an hour at a time, and when I might be able to sleep a whole night through. Yeah, I'm setting my hopes high. I should probably be going for baby steps. How about if I just manage to sleep more than four hours in a row? C'mon, baby, sleep sleep sleep! Woo!