If you're happy and you know it... (or why...)
Something happened Friday night. I don't understand it and can't explain exactly why it happened. It's odd, I know how it makes me feel, but I still don't understand why. OK, enough being cryptic, sorry, that was not my intent.
Friday night Phil and I watched the "Original Songs" episode of Glee, where they go to regionals.
When B&K finally kissed, it made me totally mushy inside. Not only that, though, it changed my whole outlook and attitude. I've felt like I've been on a high since. I'm enjoying everything more and am just feeling happy. I feel more passionate about, well just about everything, everyone gets hugs, I'm even more productive at work. I don't know that I've ever been so influenced by fictional TV.
I know that it's fictional, but it felt so real. My reaction was visceral. It was incredibly well acted, each and every tender moment, from B's realization during Blackbird, to his actions and words right before & after they kissed, including the closed eyes before he tells K how he feels, to the slightly embarrassed and uncomfortable reaction after the 1st kiss.
Even what B said to K was pretty perfect. "Kurt, there is a moment when you say to yourself, 'Oh, there you are. I've been looking for you forever,' Watching you do 'Blackbird' this week, that was a moment for me. About you. You move me, Kurt. And this duet would just be an excuse to spend more time with you."
Watching K as B is saying the above to him, K not quite knowing what to think and then watching K's breathing change. Even his reaction as they kiss, his hand and breathing. And their interactions throughout the rest of the episode were just so tender and wonderful, like young love should be. Even the end, discussing losing regionals. "You did win; so did I. We got each other out of all this. That beats a lousy trophy, don't ya think?" and then B holds out his and, which K takes and they stroll off holding hands. Totally romantic and sweet.
It just felt so right. Maybe it gives me hope for our country having a tender gay relationship on prime time TV. As I thought about how to describe what this felt like to me, words like pure, romantic, and wholesome came to mind. And then I wondered how many people would consider their relationship wholesome. I hope that number is growing each and every day.
Now I worry that the writers are going to stomp all over their relationship like they seem to like to do to relationships on the show. I hope that they can treat this one better and allow it to grow and blossom. I'm sure there will be problems as these two young men learn about romantic relationships, since they're both so new to them, but I hope the writers will do better by me. Maybe they're going to try to make a statement by having a gay relationship be the one that grows slowly with baby steps and flourishes.
I have only seen one episode beyond this one, so there's more and I have high hopes for them. Please don't post spoilers in comments since I've not seen them.
Here I am bearing my soul, not sure why, but it felt like the right thing to do. I feel so alive right now and I wanted to share it.
So if I see you sometime soon and give you a particularly warm hug, or just seem happier than usual, now you know why. I'm going to hang onto this mood for as long as I can.
Friday night Phil and I watched the "Original Songs" episode of Glee, where they go to regionals.
When B&K finally kissed, it made me totally mushy inside. Not only that, though, it changed my whole outlook and attitude. I've felt like I've been on a high since. I'm enjoying everything more and am just feeling happy. I feel more passionate about, well just about everything, everyone gets hugs, I'm even more productive at work. I don't know that I've ever been so influenced by fictional TV.
I know that it's fictional, but it felt so real. My reaction was visceral. It was incredibly well acted, each and every tender moment, from B's realization during Blackbird, to his actions and words right before & after they kissed, including the closed eyes before he tells K how he feels, to the slightly embarrassed and uncomfortable reaction after the 1st kiss.
Even what B said to K was pretty perfect. "Kurt, there is a moment when you say to yourself, 'Oh, there you are. I've been looking for you forever,' Watching you do 'Blackbird' this week, that was a moment for me. About you. You move me, Kurt. And this duet would just be an excuse to spend more time with you."
Watching K as B is saying the above to him, K not quite knowing what to think and then watching K's breathing change. Even his reaction as they kiss, his hand and breathing. And their interactions throughout the rest of the episode were just so tender and wonderful, like young love should be. Even the end, discussing losing regionals. "You did win; so did I. We got each other out of all this. That beats a lousy trophy, don't ya think?" and then B holds out his and, which K takes and they stroll off holding hands. Totally romantic and sweet.
It just felt so right. Maybe it gives me hope for our country having a tender gay relationship on prime time TV. As I thought about how to describe what this felt like to me, words like pure, romantic, and wholesome came to mind. And then I wondered how many people would consider their relationship wholesome. I hope that number is growing each and every day.
Now I worry that the writers are going to stomp all over their relationship like they seem to like to do to relationships on the show. I hope that they can treat this one better and allow it to grow and blossom. I'm sure there will be problems as these two young men learn about romantic relationships, since they're both so new to them, but I hope the writers will do better by me. Maybe they're going to try to make a statement by having a gay relationship be the one that grows slowly with baby steps and flourishes.
I have only seen one episode beyond this one, so there's more and I have high hopes for them. Please don't post spoilers in comments since I've not seen them.
Here I am bearing my soul, not sure why, but it felt like the right thing to do. I feel so alive right now and I wanted to share it.
So if I see you sometime soon and give you a particularly warm hug, or just seem happier than usual, now you know why. I'm going to hang onto this mood for as long as I can.