"Love is what it does, not what it says." (Oriental music softly plays in the background ( Read more... )

I'm in lab right now and I want to kill the computer. Well no that's not true, the computer didn't do anything to me. It's my damn mind and lack of creativity when it comes to producing music that is killing me. My final project for pro tools is due Thursday at 10:30AM and holy fuck I'm not even REMOTELY close to being done. I'm just sitting here ( Read more... )

Next week the semester will be over. And it feels like it's taking forever. It feels like the semester will never freakin' end. Ugh ( Read more... )

It has been awhile since I've typed anything in here. Oh boy. Adrian is bugging me. He keeps buggin' me about the dream I had about him. Oh well ( Read more... )

Depression has been swallowing me whole and leaving me with nothing but dried up tears that at any given moment re-wet themselves and flood my face ( Read more... )

I find it extremely odd when my 16 year old cousin (or is she 17) has a boyfriend of TWO YEARS and I'm 24 with a record of "2 years" in a relationship at one time. Well actually I don't consider the second year of my relationship with Jeff an actual relationship soooo really my longest relationship was maybe a year and four months. Yeah that's the ( Read more... )

It's Friday and woooooooo hooooo I'm going to hang out with the "peeps" this weekend!!!! Gonna do the "bar hopping" thang and hopefully a hot sophisticated San Diegan Lawyer will happen to be at the same bar we go to and is able to buy my drinks and be a mature man about it. =) We can wish right ( Read more... )

It has been 3 days (at the end of today it will 4) since we have "spoken ( Read more... )

One more frantic thing:

Taxes are due this Friday...I CAN'T FUCKING FIND MY W-2'S!!!! I need to find it before Thursday or...I'M SCREWED!!! Pray I find them!

Whenever a "boy" breaks your heart there's always that brief moment of clarity. I had one on the way to class today. I forgave him on the way to class in the car (not personally of course but ya know what I mean!). It was a "defining" moment. I think I'm ready to "heal" and I'm ready to walk the path to "being ok". I also forgave myself. I've been ( Read more... )