desperately. i love her passionately. i went out with chris today to pick up some dinner and he asked me flat out, "do you really love her?" and i said yes, more than anything. she is the love of my life and there is absolutely no one i'd rather be with.

"You and me we're through and rearranged
It seems that your not satisfied
There's too much on your mind
So you leave and I cant believe all the bullshit that I find
Life is overwhelming
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
I'd love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down"

i keep calling her house, someone picks up - but then it's quiet. almost as if they're just listening to who it could be. i just want to talk to her. :-\

What the hell is going on inside my brain? What the hell is it that i'm going through? my insides are trying to tear through my skin. i have so much to express but i'm so limited by my words and my thoughts ( Read more... )

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I'm everyone - I feel used ( Read more... )

But if I can't swim after forty days ( Read more... )

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! SON OF A FUCKING AGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I'm tense. Upset. Angry. Pissed the fucked off. Anger, rage, insanity, madness, fucking ape shit. I'm snapping like a fucking twig in the dry season during a forest fire under the tires of the dozen fire trucks arriving on the scene. FUCK! I can't describe my tension in any possible way ( Read more... )

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With the complete exception of four of you (Jon, Jeff, Lauren and Ally), those currently who haven't had contact with me in more than six months, and those living in my house ( Read more... )