So this is what Live Journal is really for
LJ is for looking back at things you posted and gaining a massive amount of perspective on yourself.
My god, I read some of these posts from up to SIX YEARS AGO and man, I think about how far I've come. Ironic that I post very close to my 26th Birthday - I read the memory I had saved from my 20th, 21st, and 22nd. I'm such a different person now it's not even funny.
What have I learned? I have learned that life is not about having zero regret. Life is about having regret and dealing with it. Reading back over my 20th B-Day post, I find it kind of funny now how I listed a bunch of things that I felt regret over. You can't change that, nor can you really change the pain you might feel from it. It gets numb over time, sure, but ultimately, you manage it. I think this (more than many things I've experienced since then) is probably one of the most important things that I've learned. I honestly have come to enjoy my regret in a somewhat masochistic way largely because it makes me feel more human.
I've been teaching college for over a year now. This semester I have just over 100 students over four classes of English. It feels good to make a paycheck. It feels better to not have to wake up at 6:30am since my classes don't start until 1pm. For a little while during the Summer break I worked at an office to make some extra money, and man that 8 to 5 is no joke. While I work the same amount of hours teaching per week, I suppose it doesn't feel as long since I'm thinking and moving around. There isn't much thought involved in running a mail room at an insurance company office.
Anyways, to any friends who might see this who still check LJ, I hold some very fond memories of the short, clumsy effort I made at Cosplay! I still have the picture from Disneyland of myself and Mickey Mouse, not to mention I think I have the picture of myself and the Belle model when she said "You're just like Gaston!" That week at AX and everything that went with it was something I don't think I'll ever forget.
My god, I read some of these posts from up to SIX YEARS AGO and man, I think about how far I've come. Ironic that I post very close to my 26th Birthday - I read the memory I had saved from my 20th, 21st, and 22nd. I'm such a different person now it's not even funny.
What have I learned? I have learned that life is not about having zero regret. Life is about having regret and dealing with it. Reading back over my 20th B-Day post, I find it kind of funny now how I listed a bunch of things that I felt regret over. You can't change that, nor can you really change the pain you might feel from it. It gets numb over time, sure, but ultimately, you manage it. I think this (more than many things I've experienced since then) is probably one of the most important things that I've learned. I honestly have come to enjoy my regret in a somewhat masochistic way largely because it makes me feel more human.
I've been teaching college for over a year now. This semester I have just over 100 students over four classes of English. It feels good to make a paycheck. It feels better to not have to wake up at 6:30am since my classes don't start until 1pm. For a little while during the Summer break I worked at an office to make some extra money, and man that 8 to 5 is no joke. While I work the same amount of hours teaching per week, I suppose it doesn't feel as long since I'm thinking and moving around. There isn't much thought involved in running a mail room at an insurance company office.
Anyways, to any friends who might see this who still check LJ, I hold some very fond memories of the short, clumsy effort I made at Cosplay! I still have the picture from Disneyland of myself and Mickey Mouse, not to mention I think I have the picture of myself and the Belle model when she said "You're just like Gaston!" That week at AX and everything that went with it was something I don't think I'll ever forget.