after we went to texas.
there's something about the tapestry on her wall
that's making me look twice; the elephants
are moving, then they're back in line.
everything is hazy. it almost looks like fog above us. it's almost three in the morning.
what was i thinking? i should have been asleep
hours ago.
how can i think about linguistics
at a time like this?
this is my last lingering grasp at christmas break
and i'll have fun if it kills me.
i exhale sharply to blow the clouds out of my head.
i need a clearer mind. suddenly i start to cough and
none of that matters anymore.
i curl up on her bed and look at the ceiling.
i've been trying to re-evaluate all day, but
nothing's coming up, i feel blank.
in the car, everything's so cold it almost feels wet.
my legs won't stop shaking because my heat doesn't work
and the window is down.
i really don't want to be the person whose
car smells like smoke all the time, but
sometimes i wonder why i even bother anymore.
tomorrow i'll go to class, and i won't remember last night at all.
that's making me look twice; the elephants
are moving, then they're back in line.
everything is hazy. it almost looks like fog above us. it's almost three in the morning.
what was i thinking? i should have been asleep
hours ago.
how can i think about linguistics
at a time like this?
this is my last lingering grasp at christmas break
and i'll have fun if it kills me.
i exhale sharply to blow the clouds out of my head.
i need a clearer mind. suddenly i start to cough and
none of that matters anymore.
i curl up on her bed and look at the ceiling.
i've been trying to re-evaluate all day, but
nothing's coming up, i feel blank.
in the car, everything's so cold it almost feels wet.
my legs won't stop shaking because my heat doesn't work
and the window is down.
i really don't want to be the person whose
car smells like smoke all the time, but
sometimes i wonder why i even bother anymore.
tomorrow i'll go to class, and i won't remember last night at all.