I never realized a panic attack could be a near death experience, or at least feel like one. I never thought I would feel so close to death just driving in the car on the way to dinner, happy and content, if a little hungry. I never knew I could have the worst experience of my life in 15 minutes of seemingly-normal time. I never knew that something ( Read more... )

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I'm only 25 years old. Why do I feel so jaded, fucked over, discontent, mistrusting and exhausted? Because power corrupts, because willful ignorance isn't against the law, because people insist on believing things that aren't true, and people insist on teaching things that aren't true. And until the slate is wiped clean, my heart fights against ( Read more... )

(Circa 2000 ( Read more... )

sad with what I have ( Read more... )

The first time I heard you voice, over the phone, telling you I went to the wrong theater... It was so deep and intoxicating. I was already so attracted to you ( Read more... )

You are such a strong man. You move slowly, you think thoroughly. You are brave. You have less fear of weakness than other men. You care about me. You are so genuine, I can tell every time when you are showing you care by trying, and showing you care without even knowing you show you care. You say the most amazing things and often don't even know ( Read more... )

"They" say that actions speak louder than words. Who is there to tell you that not all words are truth?

I wish, when people told me growing up, that actions speak louder than words, someone had also said, "but the words aren't always true." Actions can tell stories just like I can tell stories. And stories everywhere are always open to ( Read more... )

It's not that I like confrontation.
It's just that I've gotten good with dealing with it.

I can see it coming from miles away, so instead of letting it build up and build up, like a movie sword fight, where neither opposing fighter uses 100% of their skill right off the bat- I come out full force, 110%, first sentence- boom-done-over with. I win. No ( Read more... )

one bad feeling: take it and run ( Read more... )