I feel stupid - but I know it won’t last for long ( Read more... )

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- one of my friends went to the hospital last night (alch pois.) however, he did NOT die. so if you know anyone that goes to boulder, tell them that those rumors are false, bo is alive ( Read more... )

well hello there. i just woke up from my first night in my dorm! (it is so fucking freezing here i swear to g-d i'm going to hibernate when its gets below forty.) i'm loving it so far. everyone's so disoriented and walks around with their parents all the time (orientation) so i've only made a handful of friends. but, when i was moving in, there ( Read more... )

time just all of a sudden decided to catch up with me. and i'm sitting at one of my friend's houses, trying to comfort a drunk and crying friend and when she tells me why she's crying i have to bite my lip to stop myself. i can't start now, that's all i know. i can't start now. i feel like it's germany all over again, when i sat there and acted ( Read more... )

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meaning i leave for boulder in less than 2 weeks. i could not have asked for a better summer, and i'm sad that it's going to be over. i'm sad that everything is going to be over. and don't do that condecending "but you're going to have so much fun at boulder..." thing. because i know that. i know i am going to have an awesome time, and i'm going to ( Read more... )

and that doesnt mean that the feelings i have are any less strong, any less... i dont even know. i dont know. I DONT KNOW. youre my best friend. okay? and you said you didnt want to know but here it is anyway: i was sick. i was throwing up from the wine and the wine and the dancing and the champagne and the wine. and yes, he was there, holding my ( Read more... )

i wish i could explain. tell you... that i want to make things dissapear. and when people say certain things (and they often do) my mind starts holding my breath. my thoughts are smoke from my mouth, curling and dissapearing. ellusive memories chase me. through the halls, in the car at night, alone. and i can't be that way. (i'm not really strong ( Read more... )

"no matter what we start with, it ends up being so much less ( Read more... )