went paintballing on saturday.... coolest thing ever!!!!!!!!! ive got some nasty welts though, and about a thousand mosquito bites, and me roomate is making me wear socks on my hands so that i dont scrath them....but sooo worth it.
well...i just dont know how to let myself feel. and this may not be what i think it is. all of it might not be what i think it is. and maybe it is exactly what i think it is. i dont know which is worse. or better. "better and better..." noone will understand that except you. and thats what worries me.
why did you bother? now i got my hopes up. and now i am spiraling back down. 2006.....be good to me. its all i ask. and you are fucking it up. why couldnt you just leave me alone, leave it to chance? son of a bitch.