I love how I'm smiling a rediculous amount right now. Some things aren't going too great, but I'm totally looking past it ( Read more... )

I'm having a great week. Maybe its because I have a new outlook, or maybe its because nothing is perfect, yet it is. And everything is in its natural balance, except its not. I don't know how to explain myself, but I'm doing positivley lovley right now. That could all change in a matter of seconds, but i'm good with that, because for now i'm happy ( Read more... )

Okay, I feel like EVERYONE hates me today. Except like one person. I'm not even kidding. I feel like I'm going to bust at the seams because I'm so full of feelings. I guess its all catching up to me. Fuck I feel so betrayed. Now I know how Vanessa felt, and now I feel like a bitch. But I only lost one friend and gained tons. And I feel like I have ( Read more... )

Ever had anything happen to you that would be awesome at any other time? Or any number of things happen to you, some good, some bad? But you just don't feel anything. I actually think I've become so immune to emotion that I'm masking my being apathetic by having fake emotions. Because I should be a hell of a lot sadder if I just lost my best friend ( Read more... )

Peter, you have a small dick, go share that with the world.

I just realised that I don't need him at all, not if he is going to be an asshole like he has been. I am so much better then his bullshit. It is the last thing I need. One day he'll realise what a huge mistake he's made, and feel like shit. As for me, I didn't lose anything, and I'm ( Read more... )

So, I'm going to be an angst ridden teenager for just a few minutes here. Shoot me, my life is terrible (on a twisting river thats bleeding) and I want nothing more then to punch a hole in my wall (with a hornless unicorn). Two year friendships mean nothing anymore do they? For fucks sake, I'm such a terrible person let me just list off the reasons ( Read more... )

For the past two days all I've been doing is 'dancing with myself ( Read more... )

tootsie rolls are so freaking good. I just realised that now, and I also just realised that I haven't had one since last halloween. ugh now its getting stuck in my mouth and my jaw hurts like i just went to the dentist for two hours. I don't know why my mom just brought me up a big bag of halloween candy. I think she feels bad for getting mad at me ( Read more... )

I'm not having a very good day. Perhaps its the realization that I can't remember the last time I was happy. Or maybe I can't remember the last time someone gave a shit. I think I'm back to the point I was at a few months ago, and I really don't want to be, I just don't know how to get happy again. Maybe I just haven't talked to the one person that ( Read more... )

Okay is it just me or did something with LJ change? I think I'm going insane. And it drives me crazy thinking that I'm crazy. I'm going through a Deftones phase right now. Deftones and Peter's new song. Speaking of him, he loved his birthday presents, not that any of you care about that, but he sparratically orgasmed when he saw them I'm sure. I ( Read more... )