bored and alone. i have had an amazing break. it has been great to see everyone. i want to go back to school but a part of me never wants to go back at the same time. it is so awesome to be home that it will be strange to go back and odd to adjust. i've been cleaning the house all day and listening to music. just got out of the shower so now i ( Read more... )

do you ever feel when you are at a party that nobody really wants you there? when you enter one room to visit then everyone gets up to leave but one person. and then they are all upset because they got stuck with you? well i felt that way tonight. hmmm the glories of coming home and not knowing where you belong. but it was a great day ( Read more... )

i haven't felt this relaxed in three years.

candle lit room, playing damien rice, and doing yoga.

what can be better? can't play loud music or have candles in the dorm so that is why it is so nice to come home.

ahhhh meditation night for julie.

scanning pictures for a family project takes a long time. especially at the computer. oh well not very exciting but i am still jumpy from the chia tea this afternoon ( Read more... )

oh it felt so great to get out of the house today and see old friends ( Read more... )

I am feeling really lonely. I haven't hung out with any of my friends from home nor talked to anyone either. It is sad to feel so alone. I sit and watch a movie or something just like I said I would but it just isn't the same without people around. I don't want to feel sad but I really really am. and now i spend time at my computer hoping ( Read more... )

It was so nice to wake up at home this morning. I sign on to aim and then i am bombarded with people talking to me, a nice feeling. and now i have plans for the day. yay for me. and traverse city is so white. i didn't fail my chem exam, and i can't wait until i get to go do some christmas shopping... causei havn't done any yet ( Read more... )

I just really f-ed up. miss chrissy courtney has fooled me and now i want to cry. Oh my goodness i can't believe it. i can never face her again... maybe i can avoid her until thursday so she will forget about it when we get back in january. god, i really fudged up this time ( Read more... )

I am just so confused about everything. It is hard when people are talking about my love life when i don't even have one, both at home and at school. i don't know what is going on with any of the relationships i hold but when people talk about it without me rumors are started. nothing needs to be said if nothing has happened. please just for the ( Read more... )