Dream Journal
You're gonna see more of these...ignore if you're not interested! I need to do these for myself.
My dreams this week have been freaky.
On Tuesday I dreamed that John and the dogs left to go for a walk. Suddenly the outbreak monkey (from the movie Outbreak, you may know him as Marcel from "Friends") was standing at my door trying to get in. He was diseased and evil, and I knew it. Looking at him, he had puffs of sickly pink skin sticking out from his shoulders and legs, as if he were a stuffed animal.
He flew into the house and the first thing I thought was "Thank God John and the dogs got out so I can handle this." I was sure he was going to bite me and kill me - so I went into "fight" mode and grabbed him by the neck and hurled him out of the house. I was surprised he didn't manage to bite me, and I was feeling for the first time that I could overtake him.
I turned the locks and went into the kitchen to call the police or animal rescue or something, and I turned around and he was in the house again - he learned how to pick locks. (insert shivery fear that makes one want to shit oneself) We wrangled again and I bested him once more...kicked him out again and leaned against the door. Don't remember anything after that.
Interp: Finding inner strength, being able to focus and deal with curveballs. It's something I have to do myself, alone, and I have power I didn't realize I had.
Two nights ago I dreamed I was in an indoor pool area. A girl was swimming in the deep end, and a shark got out of an underwater tunnel and had attacked her, rendered her unconscious. It was swimming around hoping one of us would try to rescue her...taunting us. There were two men there, I don't know them altho I knew them in the dream. I looked at the girl, she was suspended in the water, not moving. I could feel her life slowly slipping away, knowing she would drown shortly if someone didn't rescue her. I knew I would be the one to do it, but the shark had his eye on me. I was strangely calm, knowing that altho the girl could very well die right in front of me that I wasn't going to let it force me into doing something stupid. I was calculating and focused.
I can't even begin to describe what that felt like...it was...amazingly weird for me.
Interp: Same as above, same theme. If I'm every part of the dream as Gestalt thinking says, I'm the shark, the observer, the girl. And the water, too. Parts of me are looking to sabotage, kill, ruin myself through dumb animal (subconscious) instinct. Other parts of me are the helpless, unconscious victim, and still others are the strength and the protector who are starting to learn to watch and evaluate without rushing blindly and stupidly into things. Into reacting maybe??
And last night I had a dream about a guy I once knew...I thought that chapter was over but in the dream he was back and just as vivacious and charismatic as ever. He had come home after being away, and we picked up where we left off, friends, close friends...and something more. But it wasn't sex as much as it was a very deep relationship, very intimate, almost like husband-wife without the sex element. Just intimate, close, and totally unafraid of each other. Almost like a Will & Grace thing. But better, a million times better.
And suddenly I'm infused with knowledge that that is what it is on the Other Side. I nearly wanna cry :) Good God how I miss him. I can't wait to see him again.
Interp: This has to be a message from my guide or higher self - not a wish/release dream for intimacy with my husband. It was quite obvious the way I felt that it was specifically him and it was the most eternal feeling I'd ever felt. I had absolutely indescribable joy at reuniting with him, at having a wordless connection that needed to defending, explaining, no hidden feelings, just mutual love & respect and a unrestrained joy (I keep saying joy, that's the only thing that explains it) at being able to have that give & take with no games. It was so familiar it makes my eyes water.
My dreams this week have been freaky.
On Tuesday I dreamed that John and the dogs left to go for a walk. Suddenly the outbreak monkey (from the movie Outbreak, you may know him as Marcel from "Friends") was standing at my door trying to get in. He was diseased and evil, and I knew it. Looking at him, he had puffs of sickly pink skin sticking out from his shoulders and legs, as if he were a stuffed animal.
He flew into the house and the first thing I thought was "Thank God John and the dogs got out so I can handle this." I was sure he was going to bite me and kill me - so I went into "fight" mode and grabbed him by the neck and hurled him out of the house. I was surprised he didn't manage to bite me, and I was feeling for the first time that I could overtake him.
I turned the locks and went into the kitchen to call the police or animal rescue or something, and I turned around and he was in the house again - he learned how to pick locks. (insert shivery fear that makes one want to shit oneself) We wrangled again and I bested him once more...kicked him out again and leaned against the door. Don't remember anything after that.
Interp: Finding inner strength, being able to focus and deal with curveballs. It's something I have to do myself, alone, and I have power I didn't realize I had.
Two nights ago I dreamed I was in an indoor pool area. A girl was swimming in the deep end, and a shark got out of an underwater tunnel and had attacked her, rendered her unconscious. It was swimming around hoping one of us would try to rescue her...taunting us. There were two men there, I don't know them altho I knew them in the dream. I looked at the girl, she was suspended in the water, not moving. I could feel her life slowly slipping away, knowing she would drown shortly if someone didn't rescue her. I knew I would be the one to do it, but the shark had his eye on me. I was strangely calm, knowing that altho the girl could very well die right in front of me that I wasn't going to let it force me into doing something stupid. I was calculating and focused.
I can't even begin to describe what that felt like...it was...amazingly weird for me.
Interp: Same as above, same theme. If I'm every part of the dream as Gestalt thinking says, I'm the shark, the observer, the girl. And the water, too. Parts of me are looking to sabotage, kill, ruin myself through dumb animal (subconscious) instinct. Other parts of me are the helpless, unconscious victim, and still others are the strength and the protector who are starting to learn to watch and evaluate without rushing blindly and stupidly into things. Into reacting maybe??
And last night I had a dream about a guy I once knew...I thought that chapter was over but in the dream he was back and just as vivacious and charismatic as ever. He had come home after being away, and we picked up where we left off, friends, close friends...and something more. But it wasn't sex as much as it was a very deep relationship, very intimate, almost like husband-wife without the sex element. Just intimate, close, and totally unafraid of each other. Almost like a Will & Grace thing. But better, a million times better.
And suddenly I'm infused with knowledge that that is what it is on the Other Side. I nearly wanna cry :) Good God how I miss him. I can't wait to see him again.
Interp: This has to be a message from my guide or higher self - not a wish/release dream for intimacy with my husband. It was quite obvious the way I felt that it was specifically him and it was the most eternal feeling I'd ever felt. I had absolutely indescribable joy at reuniting with him, at having a wordless connection that needed to defending, explaining, no hidden feelings, just mutual love & respect and a unrestrained joy (I keep saying joy, that's the only thing that explains it) at being able to have that give & take with no games. It was so familiar it makes my eyes water.