I delay, and things change

[july_kitty]

It has beenover a month, and for that, I humbly apologize. A lot happened the next (last) day in Michigan, most of which I do not want to commemorate, even though my blog is meant for posterity. But, since I can't sleep and it stil bothers me and there is SO much else to catch up on, I need to. So, here it goes

Comments

[mandy_frost]

YOU are a fabulous person. STOP saying things like this: "Worse, I was blaming myself for the predicament. After all, if I hadn't been such a fuck up in the first place, I would be finished with college and Paul and I would be able to at least be engaged, or closer to it, or I'd at least be more financially stable and therefore able to afford my own place (even if it throws away money to rent out a place I'm never in)."

[july_kitty]

Thank you muchly, AF. /shakes head. Paul's been telling me the same thing, but it's hard to get through my skull. There are a lot of things on this planet I wish I could change, but before dating Paul, I never regretted my past decisions, because I had learned a lot from my experiences. Now, however, I kick myself for things I had otherwise figured were fine. I'm hoping I will grow out of it.