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Something I've had to deal with for years now is on and off feelings of overwhelming hopelessness. It just happens for absolutely no reason whatsoever, and I always go on fine a few days later.
But it just happens to randomly and so suddenly that I can't help feeling a bit like I've been hit by a bus. It just sucks because I was just feeling so damn motivated, yet here I am just a couple hours later wanting to do nothing else with my life except bang my head against a brick wall and sleep.
But then I can't sleep when I'm supposed to and I start panicking.
And the weather isn't helping.
It's almost around that time that I start hibernating.
But it just happens to randomly and so suddenly that I can't help feeling a bit like I've been hit by a bus. It just sucks because I was just feeling so damn motivated, yet here I am just a couple hours later wanting to do nothing else with my life except bang my head against a brick wall and sleep.
But then I can't sleep when I'm supposed to and I start panicking.
And the weather isn't helping.
It's almost around that time that I start hibernating.