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[jumpinmonkies]

Last night, I had to run to the store. The kids were all in bed, so I went all by myself. It was heaven. I wasn't holding anyone's hand. Not once did I have to say, "Knock it off!" I could hear myself think. And think, I did. My thoughts were so loud that I wouldn't have been surprised if I was actually talking to myself out loud.

The biggest thing

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[ftemery]

A couple of thoughts come to mind as I salute your courage. One is something I heard years ago and thought was stupid, but later on I *got* it; 'What people think of me is none of my business.' Eventually I was able to stop driving myself crazy over it.

Robyn goes to Unity church. Something they say there is to 'be unattached to outcomes'. I guess that goes along with Alanon thinking that you can't please everyone.

I find I'm doing a lot better about knowing not everyone likes me.

A lot of people will appreciate a smile and some will respond; most don't seem to - but I do believe it helps anyhow in some cases we just never know about. Is that faith? I dunno. But when you catch that smile back and the sparkle in someone's eyes, though rare, it's really rewarding.

[cyros]

You and I are so much alike. I have shrank down for fear of embarrassment, for fear of looking stupid, for fear of.... well, everything. I took things intensely personally and I thought it was my job not to upset anyone. No more. It is so freaking liberating. I have no idea what people are thinking. I don't need to reject myself in advance, and if stuff I say or do isn't received well, so what. That is me. I have thoughts, opinions, interests. I care about people and I don't want to be embarrassed about my emotions any longer

[puppie]

I have a lot of those same thoughts. But in my case I fail to do them not because of fear, but because of self-absorption. ::SDER::

[crowjoy]

You are a gift to all who behold you! Huzzah!

[smlhappy]

What a lovely post. Thank you for the great big smile it put on my face.