When I'm with you... / PG ; Eunhyuk/Donghae
Falling In Love
PG ; Eunhyuk/Donghae
WARNINGS: There isn't any. Except maybe a depressed Eunhyuk.
Disclaimer: I do NOT own anyone in SM entertainment, the plot, however, is mine.
Summary: Eunhyuk's crushed by Donghae actions.
‘I’m not ready for a boyfriend right now.’
‘I can’t handle being in a relationship; I’m too stressed.’
‘There’s someone else that I like better right now.’
‘I can’t date you ‘cause you don’t go to church.’
‘What else is there to do in this relationship?’
‘I still care about you, just not like you think.’
‘Yes, I love you, but I’m not in love with you. I’m still young.’
These were the words that brought Eunhyuk’s world crashing down. He had fallen in love with Donghae, and even though they weren’t actually together for very long, they were best friends for years and it all just felt so right. So what went wrong? Eunhyuk gave up everything to be with Donghae. He gave up his past feelings for Kangin; he even tried to push Sungmin out of his mind. How could Donghae just throw everything away because things weren’t going right at that very moment?
Eunhyuk was crushed for a few days; not sure what to do. Donghae was his best friend and his most recent lover, losing him meant that he lost both of those places in his heart. Kibum has been advising Eunhyuk and telling him all the things Donghae is too scared to say. Donghae is on and Eunhyuk should do the same thing.
“Eunhyuk, you can’t hold on to Donghae forever. I know he means a lot to you, but why hold on when he’s not going to hold onto you?” Kibum was trying to do the best he could to comfort Eunhyuk.
“He’s not only my ex-lover, but he was my best friend, Kibum. I don’t want to lose him like that completely. I care too much for him. I need him in my life somehow. I never want to forget my best friend.”
“Well, he obviously wants to forget about you; sorry, but I think you just have to let go. It’s the only thing you can do so you don’t end up hurting yourself anymore.”
Eunhyuk knew this was all true, but how could he just let go of someone who meant everything to him. He couldn’t and he wasn’t going to. Talking to Donghae was the best thing that he could do at this moment.
Eunhyuk left Kibum on his bed and went to Donghae’s room. Donghae was sprawled out on his bed reading a magazine.
“Donghae, can I talk to you please? It’s kinda important.”
“Sure, sure; go ahead. What’s up?
“Uhm, I’m not sure how to say this all, but I’m just going to say it how I want. Let it hurt you, or even me more, but it’s all things that I have to say to you. I can’t go on like this.
Donghae, you’ve only just become my lover. I don’t want to lose you like that. I haven’t been this happy with anyone for so long and I’m just not ready to go back to the way I was; depressed and just pretending to be happy. When I’m with you, everything else goes away. When I’m with you, I don’t think about anybody else. When I’m with you, a smile never leaves my face. When I’m with you, I never want to leave. When I’m with you, I’m genuinely happy, but I guess there’s nothing I can honestly do to get you back.
Even before you were my lover, you were my best friend. We did everything together and always talking. We’re just not like that anymore and I seriously miss it. You were the only best friend that has every truly showed me how to be happy when it’s the hardest. If I lose you as my lover and my best friend, I don’t know how I will go on. I can’t lose you as both of those titles.
So, I guess I’m just asking you if we can go back to being best friends again. I’ve realized that I’m never going to get you back as a lover, and maybe, just maybe, If I have you as my best friend still, losing my lover won’t be as hard.
I just want my best friend back, Donghae. It’s the least you can do for me.”
Donghae sat in silence, staring at Eunhyuk not quite sure what to say. Eunhyuk could feel his face getting hotter and hotter and his heart beating faster and faster. Donghae dropped his gaze down to Eunhyuk quivering hands and reached out to touch them, but pulled his hands back.
“Eunhyuk, I’m sorry, but right now I don’t think that will happen. Don’t get me wrong, I want you to be my best friend again, but I just feel like you’re still super attached to me. Whether you are or not, you were brave enough to come here and tell me everything that you’ve been feeling. I’m proud of you for that. And because you actually had the nerve to do this, I’m going to work on getting back to best friends with you. Don’t be surprised if doesn’t happen in a few days, weeks, or even months. You have to be patient, but I promise that it will be that way again one day.”
“Thank you, Donghae. That’s all I ask.” And with that, Eunhyuk’s eyes began to well up with tears.
PG ; Eunhyuk/Donghae
WARNINGS: There isn't any. Except maybe a depressed Eunhyuk.
Disclaimer: I do NOT own anyone in SM entertainment, the plot, however, is mine.
Summary: Eunhyuk's crushed by Donghae actions.
‘I’m not ready for a boyfriend right now.’
‘I can’t handle being in a relationship; I’m too stressed.’
‘There’s someone else that I like better right now.’
‘I can’t date you ‘cause you don’t go to church.’
‘What else is there to do in this relationship?’
‘I still care about you, just not like you think.’
‘Yes, I love you, but I’m not in love with you. I’m still young.’
These were the words that brought Eunhyuk’s world crashing down. He had fallen in love with Donghae, and even though they weren’t actually together for very long, they were best friends for years and it all just felt so right. So what went wrong? Eunhyuk gave up everything to be with Donghae. He gave up his past feelings for Kangin; he even tried to push Sungmin out of his mind. How could Donghae just throw everything away because things weren’t going right at that very moment?
Eunhyuk was crushed for a few days; not sure what to do. Donghae was his best friend and his most recent lover, losing him meant that he lost both of those places in his heart. Kibum has been advising Eunhyuk and telling him all the things Donghae is too scared to say. Donghae is on and Eunhyuk should do the same thing.
“Eunhyuk, you can’t hold on to Donghae forever. I know he means a lot to you, but why hold on when he’s not going to hold onto you?” Kibum was trying to do the best he could to comfort Eunhyuk.
“He’s not only my ex-lover, but he was my best friend, Kibum. I don’t want to lose him like that completely. I care too much for him. I need him in my life somehow. I never want to forget my best friend.”
“Well, he obviously wants to forget about you; sorry, but I think you just have to let go. It’s the only thing you can do so you don’t end up hurting yourself anymore.”
Eunhyuk knew this was all true, but how could he just let go of someone who meant everything to him. He couldn’t and he wasn’t going to. Talking to Donghae was the best thing that he could do at this moment.
Eunhyuk left Kibum on his bed and went to Donghae’s room. Donghae was sprawled out on his bed reading a magazine.
“Donghae, can I talk to you please? It’s kinda important.”
“Sure, sure; go ahead. What’s up?
“Uhm, I’m not sure how to say this all, but I’m just going to say it how I want. Let it hurt you, or even me more, but it’s all things that I have to say to you. I can’t go on like this.
Donghae, you’ve only just become my lover. I don’t want to lose you like that. I haven’t been this happy with anyone for so long and I’m just not ready to go back to the way I was; depressed and just pretending to be happy. When I’m with you, everything else goes away. When I’m with you, I don’t think about anybody else. When I’m with you, a smile never leaves my face. When I’m with you, I never want to leave. When I’m with you, I’m genuinely happy, but I guess there’s nothing I can honestly do to get you back.
Even before you were my lover, you were my best friend. We did everything together and always talking. We’re just not like that anymore and I seriously miss it. You were the only best friend that has every truly showed me how to be happy when it’s the hardest. If I lose you as my lover and my best friend, I don’t know how I will go on. I can’t lose you as both of those titles.
So, I guess I’m just asking you if we can go back to being best friends again. I’ve realized that I’m never going to get you back as a lover, and maybe, just maybe, If I have you as my best friend still, losing my lover won’t be as hard.
I just want my best friend back, Donghae. It’s the least you can do for me.”
Donghae sat in silence, staring at Eunhyuk not quite sure what to say. Eunhyuk could feel his face getting hotter and hotter and his heart beating faster and faster. Donghae dropped his gaze down to Eunhyuk quivering hands and reached out to touch them, but pulled his hands back.
“Eunhyuk, I’m sorry, but right now I don’t think that will happen. Don’t get me wrong, I want you to be my best friend again, but I just feel like you’re still super attached to me. Whether you are or not, you were brave enough to come here and tell me everything that you’ve been feeling. I’m proud of you for that. And because you actually had the nerve to do this, I’m going to work on getting back to best friends with you. Don’t be surprised if doesn’t happen in a few days, weeks, or even months. You have to be patient, but I promise that it will be that way again one day.”
“Thank you, Donghae. That’s all I ask.” And with that, Eunhyuk’s eyes began to well up with tears.