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[junk_journal]

          "What I am is a runner. Running away from a thousand and one things that people say you have to be or should want to be. They'll tell you God is dead but, man, they still want you to have a purpose. They'll point to a child and say there it is, that's purpose, that's meaning. That's bullshit. A child is a mass of cells and tissues and

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[junk_journal]

I don't really relate to this, it's not like me, I can just picture the mentality.

[junk_journal]

This is not exactly the place i want to explain myself on matters like this. But briefly, there are clear differences between this and the way I feel. For starters, I dont have the confidence in my nihilism that this character does, I'm not so completely assured of the worthlessness of everything. And also I'm not a runner; if nothing else, I cant be bothered to run, I stick around to be slowly tortured by the history this guy is seeking to escape. In that sense, I'm more like the unhappy parents than the narrator himself. Finally, I feel empathy with this passage, sure, but only to the extent that I see its apathy as an endpoint. If you reach the stage of enotion outlined here, you're beyond caring, and so I see it as a blueprint for the future of a certain frame of mind. That means, in short, that this isn't 'exactly how I feel' now at all, but rather is exactly how I could feel one day. This passage is a potential prediction, not a categorical reflection, and on that level, on the level of the possible alone, I relate.

[amodern_romance]

i really liked this excerpt. so thank you. < 3

[junk_journal]

really like it too. you should chase up some of tsiolkas' work if you find the time. he is quite an extraordinary writer.

[thesurlyblonde]

Brilliant.

[junk_journal]

isn't it just?

[dreaded_dragon]

yes it is history indeed, but it's his, not mine, or theirs, or......
non the less valid though.
have you read the recent one ?

[junk_journal]

i'm actually reading his latest - Dead Europe - over right now, and i'm enjoying it immensely. it's very strange, very disturbing and compelling. from what i've read so far, i recommend it.

[strangeandhappy]

stunning
i just loved it