I want to let you in on a secret, I'm not who you think I am, in fact, my disguise is so thin, I'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade like I did at the spring formal, but I can't because you'll get scared and run away again. So I decided ( Read more... )

lately, im in a constant state of nausea....

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Dear Nava,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Love, Jessey

im in a bad place. everything is collapsing around me. i feel like i cant breathe. half the time im nauseous. the other half i have a migraine. i cry too much. everything keeps happening. its a dominoe effect. and im starting to think that im a bad person. i dont ever want to go to school. because of the three maybe four real friends i have there ( Read more... )

seriously. i dont see how people can drink straight up hard liquor... i got angry and made myself a rum and coke... and one sip nearly made me barf...... alcohol just tastes nasty. how do people do it? that was a full five minutes ago and its still burning my throat.
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my step mom tonight:
(drunk naturally)
"pick your poison well, because you never know when it's going to stab you in the back... i dont know its just a poem i made up like right now."

maybe you had to be there.... it gave ME a giggle.

wow this has just been a terrible week. its only tuesday and im already breaking down with the thoughts that should only be running through my head on fridays. im mentally exhausted. i really cant take much more school. i just need to breathe for awhile. on top of my intense workload is all this drama that i deal with from my so called friends.... ( Read more... )

so today i woke up with the full intentions of going to school. i stick my keys in the ignition, and absolutely nothing happens. shit my batteries dead. so i go to my neighbors house. they dont answer. my other neighbors? dont answer. i had really super terrible cramps so i said fuck it and decided to not go to school.... i had a relazing day. and ( Read more... )

okay so ( Read more... )

so i went up norht wednesday night, it took 8 hours, cos it was a blizzard the entire drive. but thats okay, cos when we got there, there was 5 inches of snow and it kept snowing and snowing and snowing. and the next morning there was so much snowwww. i had to put my boots on to go to the outhouse and i had a really hard time getting the door open ( Read more... )