A Sad Monaboyd Fic
Title: No Earthly Ships
Author: Christina aka just me
Pairing: Monaboyd
Rating: PG for adult situations
Summary: ‘Dom’s world is falling apart.’
Dom’s world is falling apart. He gets the stupid invitation in the mail saying that his best friend, and quite possibly the only person he’s ever been in love with, is getting married. He tells Elijah that he’s not going. No way in hell. Elijah will have to haul his bloody dead carcass to the wedding if he wants him there. It’s doesn’t make any difference to Elijah, really. Dom is the one that has to be there--a best man. He tries to call Billy and completely flat-out refuse, but he can’t. He’s never been able to say no to Billy. That’s what got him into this mess in the first place.
The mess in question is the whole sodding puke-your-guts-out feeling that he gets whenever he thinks of Billy. Or the same feeling he gets when he thinks of Billy and Allie getting married now. But for a different reason. He has always loved Billy. He can’t remember when he hasn’t. He used to be Billy’s only. His one. Now Billy has a girl and he doesn’t need to ‘pretend’ with Dom anymore. If Dom didn’t love Billy so much, he would have given up being mates with the guy years ago. When they gave up having sex together.
Well Dom can’t say no to Bill. So he goes and best-man’s and makes some damn bunk speech congratulating the oh-so-happy couple. Later he makes an even more embarrassing speech just before he pukes all over Billy’s very expensive suit. Billy doesn’t talk to him for a long time after that. Or maybe he’s just on his honeymoon. All Dom knows is that one week without Billy is like one lifetime in hell.
Then it becomes even more frequent that he goes without Billy. Billy has a family now. He has children two years apart and Dom gets bumped lower and lower on his list of priorities. Dom finds it incredibly pointless to do anything he used to do with Bill. Including surfing. He can’t even look out at the ocean anymore for fear of remembering how good he had it with Billy and think that Billy is such an idiot for not realizing that too. Sean is married and has kids and he still makes time for his friends. Yes. Everything about Billy is pointless.
And the years go on with the two of them drifting apart and Dom getting more and more maudlin about it. He refuses to see anyone else for fear Billy will suddenly end up single once more and want him back. He wanks off to the thought. He wanks off a lot. His life is a mess because Billy has left him to fend for himself when he knew Dom couldn‘t ever fend for himself.
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He gets a call at two-thirteen am. He has never been able to remember anything but he will always remember that time if not the date. The date though is August the ninth two thousand and fourteen. A little less than ten years after Billy married Allison. Molly is eight and Bryce is six. It’s not even her voice. He’s so annoyed at that because it should be her telling him. She knows how much Bill means to him. He’s sure she does. It’s a male voice and for an eternity he sits clutching the phone. Just sitting there. Why didn’t she call? Stupid, stupid bint. He wants to hate her right now, but he knows that she is probably having to console her children. Billy’s little green-eyed children. Or maybe she has to be consoled herself. She is a woman after all.
The funeral is awful. He and the other two hobbits are made pallbearers but a friend of Allie’s carries the other handle when it should be Billy on that side. The four hobbits together. But that’s stupid. How can Billy carry his own casket? Never mind. He wouldn’t have been able to. Apparently Billy has a bad heart. He should not be doing any heavy lifting. He should not be filming any action sequences in kung-foo movies. Allison says that she didn’t know. That the doctor didn’t tell her and neither did Billy. Dom hears her say that over and over again with a blank look on her face and he wants to smack her for looking like that. Why should she feel like that for his Billy when he wants to feel so hollow? There is bagpipe music all day long. Dom can hear it long after he goes to sleep that night.
Before he goes back to the US of A, Allison gives each of them a little silver box containing what she says is a bit of Billy’s cremated wedding suit. The one Dom puked on. And Dom goes into a mad rage. He should get to keep all of it. He threw up on the bloody thing. Elijah protests with a ‘we all loved him’ and Dom counters with a ‘yeah, but did you make love to him for three years?’ Dom would do anything to take his words back immediately after they pass his lips and wipe that horrified look off of Allie’s face. But he’s not in a taking mood. He can’t believe that Billy had never told Allison. If Billy were still alive he would clock him in the stupid Scottish face.
Dom ends up getting all of the suit ashes. He wants to take them to New Zealand and throw them in the ocean there. And he finds himself on the beach with a Tupperware container and his surfboard. The waves are breaking hard but Dom only sees something he hasn’t in a long time. The water laps harshly over his toes and for a moment he finds his stars intriguing. He’s been in a very dark place since the funeral but here he feels closer to Billy than he has in fifteen years. He feels that if he goes out there the water could envelop him and he will be with Billy again. It’s almost as if Billy is calling him. He can almost see Bill out there paddling to where the big waves are. Dom wants to join him. He wants to bring him his suit back. He puts the container on his board and paddles out.
Author: Christina aka just me
Pairing: Monaboyd
Rating: PG for adult situations
Summary: ‘Dom’s world is falling apart.’
Dom’s world is falling apart. He gets the stupid invitation in the mail saying that his best friend, and quite possibly the only person he’s ever been in love with, is getting married. He tells Elijah that he’s not going. No way in hell. Elijah will have to haul his bloody dead carcass to the wedding if he wants him there. It’s doesn’t make any difference to Elijah, really. Dom is the one that has to be there--a best man. He tries to call Billy and completely flat-out refuse, but he can’t. He’s never been able to say no to Billy. That’s what got him into this mess in the first place.
The mess in question is the whole sodding puke-your-guts-out feeling that he gets whenever he thinks of Billy. Or the same feeling he gets when he thinks of Billy and Allie getting married now. But for a different reason. He has always loved Billy. He can’t remember when he hasn’t. He used to be Billy’s only. His one. Now Billy has a girl and he doesn’t need to ‘pretend’ with Dom anymore. If Dom didn’t love Billy so much, he would have given up being mates with the guy years ago. When they gave up having sex together.
Well Dom can’t say no to Bill. So he goes and best-man’s and makes some damn bunk speech congratulating the oh-so-happy couple. Later he makes an even more embarrassing speech just before he pukes all over Billy’s very expensive suit. Billy doesn’t talk to him for a long time after that. Or maybe he’s just on his honeymoon. All Dom knows is that one week without Billy is like one lifetime in hell.
Then it becomes even more frequent that he goes without Billy. Billy has a family now. He has children two years apart and Dom gets bumped lower and lower on his list of priorities. Dom finds it incredibly pointless to do anything he used to do with Bill. Including surfing. He can’t even look out at the ocean anymore for fear of remembering how good he had it with Billy and think that Billy is such an idiot for not realizing that too. Sean is married and has kids and he still makes time for his friends. Yes. Everything about Billy is pointless.
And the years go on with the two of them drifting apart and Dom getting more and more maudlin about it. He refuses to see anyone else for fear Billy will suddenly end up single once more and want him back. He wanks off to the thought. He wanks off a lot. His life is a mess because Billy has left him to fend for himself when he knew Dom couldn‘t ever fend for himself.
;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-;
He gets a call at two-thirteen am. He has never been able to remember anything but he will always remember that time if not the date. The date though is August the ninth two thousand and fourteen. A little less than ten years after Billy married Allison. Molly is eight and Bryce is six. It’s not even her voice. He’s so annoyed at that because it should be her telling him. She knows how much Bill means to him. He’s sure she does. It’s a male voice and for an eternity he sits clutching the phone. Just sitting there. Why didn’t she call? Stupid, stupid bint. He wants to hate her right now, but he knows that she is probably having to console her children. Billy’s little green-eyed children. Or maybe she has to be consoled herself. She is a woman after all.
The funeral is awful. He and the other two hobbits are made pallbearers but a friend of Allie’s carries the other handle when it should be Billy on that side. The four hobbits together. But that’s stupid. How can Billy carry his own casket? Never mind. He wouldn’t have been able to. Apparently Billy has a bad heart. He should not be doing any heavy lifting. He should not be filming any action sequences in kung-foo movies. Allison says that she didn’t know. That the doctor didn’t tell her and neither did Billy. Dom hears her say that over and over again with a blank look on her face and he wants to smack her for looking like that. Why should she feel like that for his Billy when he wants to feel so hollow? There is bagpipe music all day long. Dom can hear it long after he goes to sleep that night.
Before he goes back to the US of A, Allison gives each of them a little silver box containing what she says is a bit of Billy’s cremated wedding suit. The one Dom puked on. And Dom goes into a mad rage. He should get to keep all of it. He threw up on the bloody thing. Elijah protests with a ‘we all loved him’ and Dom counters with a ‘yeah, but did you make love to him for three years?’ Dom would do anything to take his words back immediately after they pass his lips and wipe that horrified look off of Allie’s face. But he’s not in a taking mood. He can’t believe that Billy had never told Allison. If Billy were still alive he would clock him in the stupid Scottish face.
Dom ends up getting all of the suit ashes. He wants to take them to New Zealand and throw them in the ocean there. And he finds himself on the beach with a Tupperware container and his surfboard. The waves are breaking hard but Dom only sees something he hasn’t in a long time. The water laps harshly over his toes and for a moment he finds his stars intriguing. He’s been in a very dark place since the funeral but here he feels closer to Billy than he has in fifteen years. He feels that if he goes out there the water could envelop him and he will be with Billy again. It’s almost as if Billy is calling him. He can almost see Bill out there paddling to where the big waves are. Dom wants to join him. He wants to bring him his suit back. He puts the container on his board and paddles out.