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Title: But You Still Have All of Me. Part 2 read Part 1 here
Author: Christina aka just me
Pairing: Seanlij, Monaboyd, Viggorli
Rating: PG
Summary: Just thoughts.
Authors Notes: Someday I will write something that is not inspired by a song…lol.
There’s nothing like feeling maudlin. All that sick, sappy, hollowing goodness. If you put on a sad song and just let the music flow over you and you can cry and cry…
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There’s just too much that time cannot erase.
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Elijah doesn’t go over to Sean’s anymore. He calls rarely. He doesn’t want to have to remember what they almost had back then. What they had was something Elijah could never describe or put a label to and somehow that scared him more than anything ever has. He knew Sean would have never left Chris and the kids. He wouldn’t have wanted him to. Now it’s Lij who can’t be with Sean. He’s running away because he doesn’t want to be branded as ‘Frodo’. Just like when he was trying to get out of that ‘child-actor’ theme he had going on, ‘Frodo’ haunts him. And he’s fleeing the character and the country it represents he tells himself. He’s on to other things. On to better things. Sean just reminds him of the past he never had and everything that once was.
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You used to captivate me by your resonating light.
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Dom doesn’t know why Billy is acting so strange. Last time they were together all Bill could do was talk about meaningless, boring shit. The time before it took all that Dom had in him to get the guy to say a word. And now he has a girlfriend? Billy seems to be going through some weird mid-life thing or whatever. Maybe he thinks he’s getting old or maybe he thinks Dom doesn’t love him anymore. Which is crap. Dom still loves him as much as he ever did. Maybe even more. He’s been with him for what four, five years now? So what if Dom’s moved to L.A. They still see each other all the time. But Billy comes into town and they have to find things to keep themselves busy instead of just staying home for a good shag like they used to. Sure, they aren’t in New Zealand anymore, but what does it matter? Why can’t they be like they were back then?
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I’ve tried to tell myself that you’re gone.
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Orlando is so tired. God is he ever. He wishes he could just settle down but he knows if he does he will end up thinking of Him. Times when he does get a rest, Viggo is the first thing on his mind. Which seems really odd to him. Shouldn’t he be thinking about his girlfriend. They’re practically married. Not like he gets to see much of her either. But there, on his mind always, is Viggo’s smile, his voice, his hands. Viggo had such articulate hands. He often touches himself and pretends it’s Viggo touching him. He tries hard not to think about Vig when he’s with Kate, but sometimes it slips in there and he keeps himself in check not to call out to his lost love. She definitely wouldn’t understand. He doesn’t quite grasp it himself. Viggo himself is so busy with other things that he probably never thinks about Orlando. That thought alone keeps him moving. It reminds him that it’s good to be busy.
Author: Christina aka just me
Pairing: Seanlij, Monaboyd, Viggorli
Rating: PG
Summary: Just thoughts.
Authors Notes: Someday I will write something that is not inspired by a song…lol.
There’s nothing like feeling maudlin. All that sick, sappy, hollowing goodness. If you put on a sad song and just let the music flow over you and you can cry and cry…
*****
There’s just too much that time cannot erase.
*****
Elijah doesn’t go over to Sean’s anymore. He calls rarely. He doesn’t want to have to remember what they almost had back then. What they had was something Elijah could never describe or put a label to and somehow that scared him more than anything ever has. He knew Sean would have never left Chris and the kids. He wouldn’t have wanted him to. Now it’s Lij who can’t be with Sean. He’s running away because he doesn’t want to be branded as ‘Frodo’. Just like when he was trying to get out of that ‘child-actor’ theme he had going on, ‘Frodo’ haunts him. And he’s fleeing the character and the country it represents he tells himself. He’s on to other things. On to better things. Sean just reminds him of the past he never had and everything that once was.
*****
You used to captivate me by your resonating light.
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Dom doesn’t know why Billy is acting so strange. Last time they were together all Bill could do was talk about meaningless, boring shit. The time before it took all that Dom had in him to get the guy to say a word. And now he has a girlfriend? Billy seems to be going through some weird mid-life thing or whatever. Maybe he thinks he’s getting old or maybe he thinks Dom doesn’t love him anymore. Which is crap. Dom still loves him as much as he ever did. Maybe even more. He’s been with him for what four, five years now? So what if Dom’s moved to L.A. They still see each other all the time. But Billy comes into town and they have to find things to keep themselves busy instead of just staying home for a good shag like they used to. Sure, they aren’t in New Zealand anymore, but what does it matter? Why can’t they be like they were back then?
*****
I’ve tried to tell myself that you’re gone.
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Orlando is so tired. God is he ever. He wishes he could just settle down but he knows if he does he will end up thinking of Him. Times when he does get a rest, Viggo is the first thing on his mind. Which seems really odd to him. Shouldn’t he be thinking about his girlfriend. They’re practically married. Not like he gets to see much of her either. But there, on his mind always, is Viggo’s smile, his voice, his hands. Viggo had such articulate hands. He often touches himself and pretends it’s Viggo touching him. He tries hard not to think about Vig when he’s with Kate, but sometimes it slips in there and he keeps himself in check not to call out to his lost love. She definitely wouldn’t understand. He doesn’t quite grasp it himself. Viggo himself is so busy with other things that he probably never thinks about Orlando. That thought alone keeps him moving. It reminds him that it’s good to be busy.