Its hard to know these things, but I think I may have to do with the second part of that entry. Maybe not, Im not exactly sure. But if it is me you're speaking of here, then Im sorry for all that has happened between us over the past year. Im sorry I let things get so distant, and Im sorry that it can never be the same. That doesn't mean it can't get better though. My cheerleading season is over completely after next weekend. I'll have a TON more free time and I'll definately be trying to do things I haven't gotten to do in a while.. like hanging out with friends I haven't seen in forever.(you) Well, if you read my last entry, you know my cell is broken and I don't know anyones numbers.. so I guess when I get a new phone or mine gets fixed, I'll hit you up and we'll work something out.
Hope you're doing alright, even though not too many people are these days. The world is a fucked up place to be in, and unfortunately.. we're all stuck here and hating it.
I'll talk to you soon though, and hopefully everything works itself out. <3<3
thank you jenny. actually in all reality it was directed at you. but i guess it semi pertains. your amazing. i truly do miss you. and it makes me sad that thing have grown distant. but we both are very busy and i know how that goes. you dont have to give me an explanation or anything trust me i understand. i love to hangout with you sometime. all i know about you are the livejournal entries. and as people can see those arent very accurate. so yes whenever your cell is fixed please call me. i would love that. and we can talk. like we used to. i miss that.
im sorry for the way things went/are going... idk how to help you since i dont think i know the whole deal, but i do try to help in w/e way i can (even though i pretend to be an ass about the whole thing lol). if you need to talk, im here. just remember... there is always a purpose to everything, & in the end... things will work out for the best.
lana you have done so much for me..thanks for being there especially now. you are one of the few people that i can fully open up to. and not have to worry about being critized or anything. youll tell me your opinion straight and i like that. but not to make me feel bad. ill tell you more abuot it at the hellhole we call seminole.
im really not sure if any of this is about me . it all just sounds crazy. like something went terribly wrong, but thats not the case..?
but at least you have alex now right?
next time you say you'll call me back, do it, or at least pick up your phone when i call.. ...because i know its like magnetically attatched to your right hand.you never miss a beat
i guess you could say something went terribly wrong... the fact that we dont ever see each other anymore. i relaly dont want you to take it personally..even though it seems like that would be the only way to take it. its not you at all. i love you with all my heart. and i feel really bad that it has come to this. but honestly. i really havent been hanging out with anyone. when i say that its true. ive been working. and getting shit done for school before break. i know ive said it all before. but i dont knwo what else to say..its the truth. and yes alex and i hungout the other night. my first night off in a while. but dont think that shes "replacing" you or whatever. i love you way to much to hurt you in anyway. i hope you konw that. i explained to her that i have not been a good friend to anyone lately. and that i feel like shit for it. but i cant control it right now.
so please give me a call. i called yesterday. but we did not get very far. <3
and then you took a shower and said youd call me back.
you never did.
i tried AGAIN to get in touch with you. you didnt answer and later it went to v-mail.
i never said shes replacing me. not to sound full of myself, but honestly i am one of a kind. if you lose me its a pretty bad thing.
the truth of the matter (from my side) is that i am so incredibly busy too. when i had a day off i called you. flipping EVERYTIME i call you it is me driving from something i did to something new i have to do. it doesnt take much. about five minutes to see how youve been whats new with school life etc. its not hard. i promise. ive done it this entire time.
its not like i have all this free time to play around with either. but when i do i make the most of it with the people i care about most. not the people i thought were once weird crazed psychos... sorry but i tend to keep them away from my happenings once they fucked things up. history repeats itself when the hell will you learn.
shit misundestanding like none other. i thought you were gonna call me back when you got your keys and such back..ooops thats hwy i didnt do anything. o well hopefully ill se you tomorrow. yeah interview
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But if it is me you're speaking of here, then Im sorry for all that has happened between us over the past year. Im sorry I let things get so distant, and Im sorry that it can never be the same.
That doesn't mean it can't get better though.
My cheerleading season is over completely after next weekend. I'll have a TON more free time and I'll definately be trying to do things I haven't gotten to do in a while.. like hanging out with friends I haven't seen in forever.(you)
Well, if you read my last entry, you know my cell is broken and I don't know anyones numbers.. so I guess when I get a new phone or mine gets fixed, I'll hit you up and we'll work something out.
Hope you're doing alright, even though not too many people are these days. The world is a fucked up place to be in, and unfortunately.. we're all stuck here and hating it.
I'll talk to you soon though, and hopefully everything works itself out.
<3<3
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actually in all reality it was directed at you.
but i guess it semi pertains.
your amazing.
i truly do miss you. and it makes me sad that thing have grown distant. but we both are very busy and i know how that goes. you dont have to give me an explanation or anything trust me i understand. i love to hangout with you sometime. all i know about you are the livejournal entries. and as people can see those arent very accurate.
so yes whenever your cell is fixed please call me. i would love that.
and we can talk. like we used to. i miss that.
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im a dipshit.
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you have done so much for me..thanks for being there especially now.
you are one of the few people that i can fully open up to. and not have to worry about being critized or anything. youll tell me your opinion straight and i like that. but not to make me feel bad.
ill tell you more abuot it at the hellhole we call seminole.
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like something went terribly wrong, but thats not the case..?
but at least you have alex now right?
next time you say you'll call me back, do it, or at least pick up your phone when i call..
...because i know its like magnetically attatched to your right hand.you never miss a beat
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the fact that we dont ever see each other anymore.
i relaly dont want you to take it personally..even though it seems like that would be the only way to take it. its not you at all. i love you with all my heart. and i feel really bad that it has come to this. but honestly. i really havent been hanging out with anyone. when i say that its true. ive been working. and getting shit done for school before break. i know ive said it all before. but i dont knwo what else to say..its the truth.
and yes alex and i hungout the other night. my first night off in a while. but dont think that shes "replacing" you or whatever. i love you way to much to hurt you in anyway. i hope you konw that.
i explained to her that i have not been a good friend to anyone lately. and that i feel like shit for it. but i cant control it right now.
so please give me a call. i called yesterday. but we did not get very far. <3
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you never did.
i tried AGAIN to get in touch with you. you didnt answer and later it went to v-mail.
i never said shes replacing me. not to sound full of myself, but honestly i am one of a kind. if you lose me its a pretty bad thing.
the truth of the matter (from my side) is that i am so incredibly busy too. when i had a day off i called you. flipping EVERYTIME i call you it is me driving from something i did to something new i have to do. it doesnt take much. about five minutes to see how youve been whats new with school life etc. its not hard. i promise. ive done it this entire time.
its not like i have all this free time to play around with either. but when i do i make the most of it with the people i care about most. not the people i thought were once weird crazed psychos... sorry but i tend to keep them away from my happenings once they fucked things up. history repeats itself when the hell will you learn.
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i thought you were gonna call me back when you got your keys and such back..ooops
thats hwy i didnt do anything.
o well
hopefully ill se you tomorrow.
yeah interview
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