the walk seemed longer today than before ( Read more... )

something feels like it is lingering in the air today ( Read more... )

One says that i'm not trying ( Read more... )

these days the warmth hasnt been coming through quite as easily
these days the sun hasnt come out quite as much
and yet, with little provocation, a cathartic purge acts as a catalyst
[if something must be declared a cause]
and it comes in, once again, loud and clear
the sun that doesnt shine begins to warm my bones through the pre-emptive winter
[ ( Read more... )

calls on
and off
and which way is up today?

been doing a lot of thinking
and thinking a lot of doing
and how much of this is real
and how much is semi-real ( Read more... )

cool breeze tonight
nights getting colder, longer
something sort of like memory in the air,
something sort of like loss
something that feels like tomorrow's yesterday that never happened

so far away is she[?]
yet right there, so real you can taste it
a plea for help
a thousand words in a gaze
years of pain and fear
[their tangibility is neither ( Read more... )

he's forgotten the words once again
struck down in a moment
and he's forgotten the melodies that once filled his heart [and the night]
like a lover's soft whisper
the boy stands strong against the dying of the night
holds fast his vigil over the storm
and the man softly weeps to himself,
alone [as he's always been]the cold slowly seeping in ( Read more... )

grey skies once again [inside only; out is blue and wide]
remind me of days of despair and salvation long past
an old familiar tune guides
refreshes innocence
[in a sense]
[nonsense!]
and i wonder about patterns and cycles
these weather-worn spirals we seem to followand i think about beginnings ( Read more... )

what drives?
onward, outward
...to what end?
the logic of emotion
the truth on none

out of syntax
out of touch
out of place
out of reach

what strives
what aligns
what binds

what sound
what touch
what love

what now?

~*~

i know the pieces fit
but i know not how we've come to this
[such proximity]
never felt farther away
[not unwelcome][yet unwanted]
an intruder [felt i]
as i try [in vain] to stifle sobs of grief
a sea of distance in half a foot

and yet, my vision still intact
sharper, more defined
so...

...what is wrong?
[unseen] i curl into myself
[unheard] i ( Read more... )