It's fuckin past 6 in the morning and I still can't fuckin sleep. So uncool. I work a 9 hour shift in under 12 hours now and if I don't get to sleep I'm gonna be so fucked. I've been writing in this fuckin LJ entirely too much lately, n it's mainly cause it helps me sleep somehow so heregoes. Don't you just fuckin hate havin a head fulla thoughts ( Read more... )

finally got an actual honest to goodness day off fucking work hurrahhh. I was in well befor I would be if I were working and I didn't get to party my fuckin ass off (though I did party a lil) but I prettymuch got to do exactly what I wanted to do with it so yay!:)

Don't you just hate those fucking benders. Sure we all have em, alcohol benders, study benders, t.v. watching benders. Drug benders as well but then there's that certain special kind of drug bender, when reality, common sense, time itself and everything else you once held dear just cease to exist until BAM you have that moment where it hits you ( Read more... )

I took so much god damn abuse today. On the phone, from coworkers, just from crusty italians in general. I really need a big hug but everyones asleep. Gotta say though I'm glad for this experience in general. Cause shitty as this is, this is just a portion of my life that I'm using to fund a fun portion of my life. To the people who work there this ( Read more... )

Well that was one brutal motherfucking shift. Started at 6 ended at 3 no breaks...seriously i mean no breaks. Sure it ain't legal but neither is cash pay so whatevs. People there are pretty cool, they say I'm the hardest worker they've seen in years. Sure do wish I had some weed, that would seriously help me unwind. Ah well. Wish people partied ( Read more... )

Have turned into an even bigger meaner bitch than I could ever imagine. You think people are your fucking playtoys who you can just fuck with for your amusement. That is a sick way to go through life. I am glad that I'm never going to see you again.

Goin away next weekend to see my grandma for what is prettymuch undoubtably going to be the last time. Very very wierd feeling about this. Like...it's actual pressure to bond with her cause I'll never get to again. Just so strange. We all take life for granted. We never really think about what a gift we've been given or how finite it is and then it ( Read more... )

can't sleep. Too much thought. I'm gettin the sad sickening feeling I fucked up the greatest thing to never happen too me. Blah!

Had the most amazing night. Me and my friends seriously all just operate on the same wave length and it is amazing. Can't even explain the bonds that we share, or the way of thinking we have in common that brought us together. I am gonna miss each one of those fuckers greatly and deeply. Cept russo. Fuck russo. Lil pussy biotch. What is it about ( Read more... )

I'm sittin here....high...as fuck, eating pop tarts doing my university res application. The deadline for gauranteed acceptance has been moved from May 11th which was long ago. to June 8th which hasn't even happened yet. So like, now all I have to do is read over the brochure, decide which one I like the best and I'm gonna be living there for the ( Read more... )