miiiiiiiike. godd i havent talked to you in forever!
but yea; um. im really sorry about this. and suicide is NOT good! :( i dont know how your realtionship is...but im hoping its open enough that you can talk to her about this. you should tell her exactly how you feel, and what you're worried about. i tend to be a jealous person..so its cool that you're not restricting her. ive never been in a situation like this..so im sorry; i dont really know what to say.
knowing me, if i were put in a situation like this i would kinda close up, in hopes of "detaching" myself, as you said. its not really the best thing to do tho....i'm not sure what is; expect the worst; but hope for the best :\
thanks...i wasn't thinking of commiting suicide...it was placed in there for dark comedy...but you make good points and i appreciate that...we have to talk soon...it had been forever.
i'm sorry i made you cry. but a lot of the things you do to me does really get to me. like saying you hate me. that word goes right through me and for someone i idolize as much as i do you to say that to me...it kills me. that night at the fire pit when i started crying. it was because you said you hated me. i do not hate joanna. nor will i ever. i never thought joanna hated me. ever. yes i make horrible decisions because i don't think things through. i am a fuck up. you have said it yourself at times. i want our relationship to be better. in some aspects it has gotten better. but you still do things that hurt me more than anyone would ever realize. you are my hero mike. i look up to you more than you realize. more than anyone realizes. i love you michael scott martin. and i don't want to cry anymore. help me stop shedding these things people call tears.
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godd i havent talked to you in forever!
but yea;
um. im really sorry about this. and suicide is NOT good! :(
i dont know how your realtionship is...but im hoping its open enough that you can talk to her about this. you should tell her exactly how you feel, and what you're worried about. i tend to be a jealous person..so its cool that you're not restricting her. ive never been in a situation like this..so im sorry; i dont really know what to say.
knowing me, if i were put in a situation like this i would kinda close up, in hopes of "detaching" myself, as you said. its not really the best thing to do tho....i'm not sure what is;
expect the worst; but hope for the best :\
<3 sorry.
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take care,
mike.
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i'm sorry i made you cry. but a lot of the things you do to me does really get to me. like saying you hate me. that word goes right through me and for someone i idolize as much as i do you to say that to me...it kills me. that night at the fire pit when i started crying. it was because you said you hated me. i do not hate joanna. nor will i ever. i never thought joanna hated me. ever. yes i make horrible decisions because i don't think things through. i am a fuck up. you have said it yourself at times. i want our relationship to be better. in some aspects it has gotten better. but you still do things that hurt me more than anyone would ever realize. you are my hero mike. i look up to you more than you realize. more than anyone realizes. i love you michael scott martin. and i don't want to cry anymore. help me stop shedding these things people call tears.
i love you. *hug*
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