Why WOULDN'T you want to have sex with Laura?!?
I tend to obsess on things. You all know this, I'm sure. So what finally drove me to post, besides the desire to inform you all of the exciting antics of my life, is what's bugging me right now. It's not all that interesting, but I'll explain it because a few of you, actors especially, may understand what I'm talking about:
Okay, so the point of rehearsal is to improve things. Right? You do a scene, the director gives you notes, compliments, criticisms, etc. and then you move on. You do a new scene. Now my problem isn't so much that I forget the notes, but that if I do a scene less than my best, and I know I can do it better, especially with the advice I was just given, I want to do it. And I can't stand the thought of not being able to do it, just because I know I can. It sounds really stupid and pretentious now that I type it, but what I mean is that I get fixated on it, and I can't let go until I get a chance to do the scene again, and then I just mess it up because I'm too nervous to get it right.
Long story short, I need to work on memorization, characterization, etc. outside of rehearsal so that I'm more prepared when I go in. I'm sure I was fine tonight, I just HATE the idea that I wasn't doing something as well as I could have, and now I HAVE to do it better. And then thinking about it just puts me in a bad mood.
Anyway, forgive the emo ranting, but that's what livejournal's for, right?
I'm going to be proactive now though. Becuase I think I'm in a good mood, I am. Right?
It seems like forever since I last updated. But I guess it was only Friday. I'm gonna kinda breeze over some stuff because I'm lazy and Laura already mentioned most of it in her LJ, but that night we went over to Graham's. I was originally planning on going to bed early, but it was my last chance to see Graham and, given my whole thing about it being easier to regret things you don't do than things you do, I decided that was more important than sleep.
When we (Doyle, Laura, Graham, and I) got there, we watched some weird (but funny) British comedy called "Black Adder," which involved this guy betting his friends that he had a real working time machine. He had his assistant bring him items of "proof" from important historical events from a sort of giant prop room. The twist was that the machine actually worked and he ended up screwing with history lots. Yeah, it was odd.
Then we went to my house. After a good deal of couch orgies and "what should we do? i dunno....," Laura and I decided to show them a few scenes from "Jekyll & Hyde" and then "Once More, With Feeling," the Buffy musical. Graham fell asleep a bit (it was 3 in the morning to be fair), and Doyle seemed less than enthralled, but Laura and I had tons of fun watching it.
Saturday was an EXCITING day!! I cleaned my room!!!!! But it was actually good. I reorganized everything so it makes sense now and it makes me feel better in general. I'm neurotic that way. But it was good. Now I just need to clean out my desk. Sara came over and helped, which involved me giving her things I didn't want and her mocking the random crap that I had. Hazel came over too (cuz, HAZEL!), back from Christian camp, but unfortunately missed the cleaning (she LOVES to clean).
But we did get to catch Hazel up on our Space Toaster writing, which was good, because she really liked it. We watched Firefly, which I still love but will never again watch with Hazel. Hazel's fun, but not during episodes of Firefly that you haven't seen yet.
Sunday was my birthday (as I updated)!! I opened presents in the morning with my mom and sister, and got a bunch of really awesome CDs and DVDs. We went out to lunch at Tin Alley Grill, and then soon it was time for my birthday 'party'. We all met at the movie theatre in Fresh Pond (though there was a slight confusion in that Latara and I were waiting outside and everyone else was inside), bought our tickets, and then Laura drove us all to Bertucci's for dinner.
The hostess was someone I knew from my Spanish class, but unfortuantely, I couldn't remember her real name, and only that her Spanish name was Josephina, which didn't help.
We split pizzas and dishes and paid in mostly ones, because we're cheap. It was very fun though. We reprogrammed Hazel (when you poke her she says "ahh, BANANAS!" or "ahh, LESBIANS!" depending) and discussed our RPS OTPs (Laura/Suzie, Sara/Virginia, Will/Tim, Me/Graham, etc.). There was an interesting moment in Bertucci's when we were trying to explain why Laura/Hazel would be hot, and Hazel was confused, so we loudly explained that she should want to have sex with Laura. A bunch of tables heard and turned around, so we finished our conversation outside, where I hypnotized Hazel into obedience. Mwhahahaha.
I also got a call from Skochie, which was YAY!! I couldn't really hear, cuz I was in the car, but it was nice because I miss my Skochie...
At dinner, I was bombarded with incredibly creative and thoughtful presents from all my friends. Laura gave me a gift certificate to Hootenany, so I can punk myself up some more; Rita gave me a punk mix CD, which I can play while I'm being punk; SaraandVirginia gave me a HAWT Darla doll (JULIE BENZ!!) and the "Once More, With Feeling" soundtrack; and Yenarae gave me "Raven" nail polish and eye liner (for the punk thing), those gimpy black bracelet things, a CD of jazz versions of "Jekyll & Hyde" songs, and the Eurotrip soundtrack. Well, I won't know what I did to deserve such kind and devoted friends, but I sure am luckily to have all of them, and not just because they give me nice things!
Oh, and there was a movie in there too. We saw "The 40 Year Old Virgin," which was actually REALLY REALLY good. I got in legally!! Even though it was Fresh Pond, so they could care less about R-rated movies. But yeah, movie was good. It was hillarious, but not by sacrificing plot. It was very smart, and you actually cared about the characters, which is rare in R-rated sex comedies. I could go on about the movie, but it'd be easier for me to just tell you to go see it! Cuz you should.
We left the theatre singing "Aquarius" from Hair (yeah...), and playing the "Hey, you know how I know you're gay?" game, from the movie, which, in my group of friends, could go on for a LONG time. We went back to my house for cake, and to look up a few actors in the movie that looked really familiar.
We hung out in my basement, talking and listening to the Eurotrip soundtrack. I let Yenarae paint my nails black (along with Laura's) because she leaves tomorrow and I probably am not going to see her again (tear...:'-(). I will miss you, dear. Thanks for the nails.
Yesterday was a very good day. Not sure why, was just very happy. Which is especially strange considering it was a Monday. Anyway, I had to work in the morning which sucked (getting up at seven with five hours of sleep...eww), but it was actually alright. I got to drive, which always calms me, and I listened to "OMWF" on the way there. I only got lost a teeny bit, and the drive is a THOUSAND times easier and shorter than when I worked in Sudbury (this is in Concord), so it's nice.
Okay, I'm gonna talk about work for awhile, so feel free to skip this if you don't care. Well, it was really nice because I already knew half of the counselors from "Sound of Music," but the other half were all new. Of the old counselors were Jim, Russell, Annie (wait, who's she again...?), Erica, and Grace. The new counselors (new to me, anyway) were Sarah, who seems nice but waaaay too hyper, like Kayleigh on speed; Katie, who was nice but a little quiet and hard to judge; Matt, who I didn't talk to much, but who Erica and I have decided is probably gay, whether or not he knows it; Andrew, who I didn't talk to at ALL, but didn't get a great impression of either; and Kate, who is one of the coolest people I've ever met in my life. She just graduated from studying theatre in college and she has that lack of inhibitions and freedom of spirit that I've noticed among college graduates who studied theatre. It's hard to describe, but it's like you can tell they act, and that they do it well, just in the way they interact with people and the outgoingness and confidence they possess.
Anyway, the kids seem really talented (better than both the Belmont and Sudbury kids), but I didn't stay for casting because I had too much to do. I'm strangely excited considering we're doing "Oklahoma!," but at least I know everything, so I don't have to learn any of it as we go.
After that, thus beginning the next two weeks of hell, I went home for a few hours and then out again to rehearsal. We did a sing-through of pretty much the whole show, which went very well, partly thanks to the fact that I was already warmed up from the morning. And I got to see a bunch of people who haven't been around -- Isabel, Jacob B., Hadley, Matt, and Emma H. I got lots of compliments on my nail polish too. The highlight of the evening though was Will putting on Alycia's tight pink "I would do me" shirt. Just wow.
A bunch of graduated seniors came to visit, and I hugged Graham and Emma F. goodbye for the last time before college and exchanged wishes of luck and happiness. I'm going to miss all my senior friends muchly. I hate people leaving.
I went to Sara's around 10 which, excluding a minor fiasco involving Virginia getting home, was fun, as we got to watch "Safe" (Firefly).
Today was uber-productive and busy, if a little stressed and depressed. Work in the morning went pretty well. We gave out parts, no one cried (that I saw anyway), and I really like my cast (counselors and campers--we divided in half).
I got home from work, and Sara and Virginia came over to write Space Toaster. Virginia got here first though and we sung through basically all of "OMWF" while I played piano. It was realy really awesome, and I think listening to the soundtrack is helping me get better at playing it. That and just practicing it. I faked most of it, but shhh...cuz Virginia doesn't know. Sara came, and we wrote, wrote, wrote. It was actually one of the most natural, genuinly funny, subtle, and relevant scenes in the episode, so I'm very happy with it. Plus we added in a slew of new characters, including a preppy guy named Aaron, who responds to pretty much everything with "Dude, that's so gay man." We had way too much fun writing scenes contrasting dialogue at the round tables vs. long tables. Ahhhh...stereotypes. I'm really excited for this. Just a bit more to go to finish part 1 of the ep.
I had Fantasticks rehearsal at night, which was okay, but not great. I got there and Ms. Law was basically like, hey, lets run all of YOUR scenes in a ROW! So I got a little tired. Plus I was already sleep deprived. And as you may have read at the beginning of this entry, it left me feeling a bit emo (it didn't go as well as I would have liked), but in the words of Ani DiFranco: "to every thought I have now I say 'fuck it'." Yeah, I'm cool. I think I just need to practice and LEARN MY LINES (I SUCK!), and then I'll be okay. GRAAAHGHHHHHH! Sorry, had to get that out.
I got to see Izzy at rehearsal though, which was great, because she's been gone pretty much all summer. And I got to play with Graham's sword. I mean, he brought a sword as a prop for the play....and my character uses it...aww screw it, there's no way that's not dirty.
I feel like school is slowly closing in on me. Only a few weeks left and I still have so many things I wanted to do this summer. I know I won't get to all of them, but hopefully I'll at least get to do the important ones. Aahhh, so much to do!
This week is jam-packed, but it should be fun. Tomorrow, I'm actually going to the gym (look at me, being all healthy!), and then thursday, more ST writing (deadline = september), same thing friday. Hopefully Saturday will be beach day, and then Sunday is resume (I'm too lazy to do the accents--its the kind you submit at auditions tho) party day.
If I get through the next few weeks of summer without a breakdown, and actually finish my summer reading, I will be very happy.
I really like "Something to Sing About." It's such a good song.
I apologize for this entry sucking massively. I'm in kind of a bad mood right now for no apparent reason (one of those days I guess) and that means I can't write very well. But hopefully you found it mildly interesting.
I'm going to sleep now in hopes of feeling better emotionally. After all, tomorrow's a brand new day. Oh you know you were thinking it too. Don't look at me like that.