Body: [x] You know someone that cares about you ( Read more... )

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so i leave for TN in 3 days. and im SOOO excited! its going to be an awesome time, im just nervous about what might and probably will happen between me and lucas. the guilt will be immense for me when i get back home to nate. i have such a guilty concious that i might end up breaking down and telling him. but nothing might not even happen between ( Read more... )

you must say 10 things that you want to say to 10 different people...do not identify these people ( Read more... )

so surprisingly, life is starting to work out for me haha. aside from the major debt im in, everything seems to be perfect. i have a boyfriend WHAT?! you might be thinking?! jackie has a boyfriend?! yes i do, and its not as bad as i usually think it is. im still afraid of relationships like i always am, but i dont have a devin boy. im training him ( Read more... )

and what a weekend this shall be! :)

a reminder for myself....im NOT going to let myself get attached, i refuse, and luckily thats easy for me to do. i need new boys. fresh new boys to play with :)

perfect FUCKING timing, just perfect. this has to stop.

i never realized how much of an impact devin has had on me until now. i mean wow. everything between me and him has really fucked with my head. i dont even know how to act. or handle anything. anything to do with boys, im screwed. i dont know what i want or feel. i get attatched to quickly and then i push it all away when i have boys left and right ( Read more... )

oh my god....im so fucked up.