i wish i could make myself sit down and write.
make sense of the bullshit swirling around my brain.
but i cant seem to even form a sentence that makes sense
how many times can a person just fucking give up?
and when does the peace come, the acceptance?

i didnt exactly 'try' do do anything while riding, I just saw the roll over coming, new I was going down hard and t i just didnt fucking care if it killed me. more often than not, i find myself still questioning why not, considering there were 3 other accidents identically to mine [lost control, no helmets, completely flipped and rolled their bikes ( Read more... )

its odd that i can still hear them, the coyotes, although it's almost sunrise ( Read more... )

i had to reinstall AOHellforlooooozers [me] 4 times in the past 3-4 months.
This has caused me to lose everysingle friend i had on my buddylist. So, if you're out there in eljayland we chatted a little send me your AIM/IM name again so I can put everyone back.
and not kill someone.

my Father In Law had a pretty horrible accident on his ATV, just about an hour ago. He was found unconscious and life-flighted to Tuscon where he is still in very critical condition. and have no idea if he will survive, as he suffered a very serious head injury. he was not wearing a helmet.

Ok so now, he is dead. And I feel nothing but hate ( Read more... )

Interesting to skim over my entries here... be it recent or even through the past year ( Read more... )

Yeah, it's directed to you. Deal.


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