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[justajumpoff]

if it wasn't for the fact that being in lower moreland will help me get into a college better than northeast i'd be the fuck out of here so fast you wouldn't even know i was gone. doubt it would make a difference to anyone anyways. ionno but in my group of friends i like feeling needed and ionno...wanted. excuse me if thats wrong

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[imonlyinurhead]

well jess i mean honestly look at the people u chill with in LOMO. dan,pj, bobby. would u expect anything different from them??i mean really if i have said it once i have said it a thousand times. i hate how the kids who used to go to philly schools make such generalizations about lower morelanders. its not everyone. you want to smoke so u hang out with people who smoke a lot. all those guys really care about is smokin up. they dont care about friends. they would stab each other in the back in a second if it came down to it. maybe u should try workin on actual friendships with people and not just smoking buddies. i mean obviously i cant be the one to talk because i was like this not to long ago. but seriously like if u hang out with people outside of school who dont want to smoke 24, then u would probably grow friendships that wern't all based on toking up. me and tish didn't become so close because of drugs. we became close and then started doing drugs. so our friendship was never based on that. do you get what im saying?? grrrr i

[justajumpoff]

i completely understand what you're saying. it's the same with me and lilian, we were tight BEFORE we started smoking together...but like..max and dan...we only started chillin to smoke. i feel like i have a friendship with them but sometimes i feel like they dont feel the same way. maybe guys like them dont care about true friends. beth, ive tried so hard to put myself out there for them, i cant even tell you. i feel rejected and i dont understand why. im sure they talk about me when im not there and it really hurts me, when i started chillin with them it wasent just to "blaze" it was to be friends too. i guess that was just me. i dont know anymore. thanks for your input tho, it means alot.
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