Why so angry?

[justcalebfornow]

I'm on a mission to become more positive despite my circumstances. In the grand scheme, I suppose life isn't so terrible, but I keep getting caught in this loop of frustration, and that can be, well, frustrating. I have already made it clear that I do not like Atlanta. Given. I am becoming more and more okay with that aspect of things. I can

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[alphagabe]

I wish that Big Cypress wasn't like 16 hours away. I might still be down if they start announcing some really good DJs and late night stuff.

As for the adventure stuff. If you keep on striving for things that are impermanent if you make objects(adventure) more important to you than anything else you will find yourself in fluctuating state of peak enjoyment and apathetic malaise. Peak enjoyment in life is a wonderful thing, but it cannot be sustained. Seeking always leads to more seeking.

Basically what I'm saying is that you might want to consider making something other than adventure really high on your priority list, it obviously isn't serving you well as a goal.

[alphagabe]

Nothing is "wrong" with seeking, but people often find themselves looking for things in the belief that once they find the object of their desire they will stop looking. Can you think of a time where you were anticipating something and it didn't measure up to you expectations. What did that feeling lead to? More seeking probably. Right now I am seeking the next keystroke to complete this word. I believe happiness is partly an internal state of awareness that doesn't need to be found as much as it needs to be realized or relaxed into. People delude themselves into thinking that seeking will be a means to an end. And in the forever words of Billy Corgan "the end is the beginning is the end".

[gretcho]

I, too, have been struggling with issues like this. I used to have fun all the time. I wouldn't necessarily say I had 'adventures', but it was something similar. Now all I do is go to school, work, watch football and go out occasionally. I feel like I have become a 'grown up' and it's really depressing sometimes. Part of me wants to blow off grad school for a year and travel and have fun. But the grown up in me says that is totally irresponsible and I am 24 years old and I need to go to grad school so I can start my career before I hit 30. Ugh. Sometimes I really hate having to be a responsible adult.

That music festival looks enticing though. The lineup is impressive and I could actually go for Fri, Sat, Sun since I only have class on Tue/Thurs next semester. AND it's the weekend after my birthday! It's just so far away. :/

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?

[elizabethbh]

"Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone"

I fucking hate The Eagles.

[conner187]

thoughts

[justcalebfornow]

This is precisely the answer I was looking for. Thank you so much, Conner.

[raoul_acosta]

wonderful, wise words

you should start an advice column "Conner Tells You What The Fuck Is Up"

[andidandilion]

you are not alone. i'm waiting for a meteor to hit me and change everything. somewhat wishful thinking i guess, haha
it's hard to live like you imagine and still keep up with life in the grander sense.