010 || I am become death [audio]
I stepped on too many butterflies. She said that both times. What am I supposed to take away from that? Apparently I cared too much? And if some people don't care enough, shouldn't it balance out? Do we have to cut it down to systems to make things fall back into place?
What place was it anyway?
I want to do things right. I want to fix things.
I can't do it alone, and I don't think anyone expects me to, which helps I guess.
Maybe. Maybe I can do more when people think I'm capable of more. Maybe it shouldn't be about that at all.
Claire has been really quiet and I don't know what to do about it, or if I should be the person to do something about it, but I don't know if Alex knows enough, and the other people close to her are tangled up in it too...or really far removed. She shouldn't have to deal with this, but she does, and mom would say that since she has to, she might as well suck it up and do what she can but I can't say that. I don't even know if I believe that.
I asked before, what happens when we're the ones who need saving? Right now it looks like...well...
Why haven't you shown up?
I think we've waited long enough.
I guess this applies more to people who have been here for a while, but it's really open to anyone.
For some, the idea of multiple worlds isn't anything new or as unbelievable as it is for others. On the other hand, some find it completely ridiculous, even months after being here, and even after accepting it, still think it's borderline crazy, even if it's the truth, what's really happening.
Here, we're under the impression that we can't leave by choice, that we could be here for days or years, seconds, or lifetimes, and that at home time itself stops, which means we go back to the point we first left. So what can we take away from that in what we do here?
Do you try to stick to what you know? Do you try to be someone different? How much of what you do here is connected to what is going on back in your own world, even if nothing is moving forward---or because nothing is moving forward?
I left nursing because I thought---
No that's not important.
Not anymore.
[[ooc: Mmmm Peter is a people person so I'm going to try and get him out more, but for those who enjoy action/logging, this is the post here. NOT to be confused with his Phone/ Contact Post, just to clarify. As he works at the Turnabout, you can email about setting up a scene there, if you want, or really, anywhere. He likes to be out and about so if you want to arrange some other way of having them interact, it's all good. Email is in that post. Sorry for TL;DR ooc, but, um, he's a people person overall and I want to try to be less fail about that. Whew. Thanks for getting through that, supposing that you did, and if you didn't...er...I don't blame you 83 heh..oh and strikes are thoughts, always.]]