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Sometimes it feels like we're not able to do anything, but I think the most dangerous thing is that we start to think it's only because we're here...when I know I've felt that way back home, more recently than ever.
What are we doing wrong, always ending up like this?
When I ask you, I don't know if I even expect an answer anymore. I'm not asking for a written contract. I just...
...
You said...
Different people, different worlds, and I come from a place where people can fly but I still have a hard time with certain things here.
Anna. What did they do---
Why?
But I'll never know the whole story. Maybe I don't want to.
I'm sick of learning things about the people that I like that tell me I shouldn't like them after all.
In our world, I want change. I want a place that people can call home, all kinds of people.
People like Claire.
People like Nathan.
I couldn't save-- I couldn't make-- I couldn't---
People...like me.
I never wanted to be just ordinary. It didn't seem like I could do anything that would matter that way. And I don't think I was completely wrong.
But I don't think I was exactly right anymore either.
- - -
Sylar...
...I keep---
...no.
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Today I saw ridiculous things. Fights over useless things. Fights over nothing at all. Property destroyed and all kinds of trouble.
But I saw good things too.
People came out of the woodwork---healers you won't find in the hospital probably but still doing the job, and defenders...ordinary people and extraordinary ones, throwing their efforts in together toward fighting what they knew was wrong.
Because at the end of the day, even if there are bad guys, that means there are good guys too. You can't have a scale for bad without good.
I don't want to be here.
But it could be worse.
Maybe we are here for a reason.
Today could have been one of those reasons.
I think I can safely say I've earned expertise in tarping storefront windows. I'll have to add it onto my resume eventually.
Human punching bag isn't that special, probably. And it probably doesn't count if I punched back.
[And here there is a pause followed by a sigh as the absent tap of fingers also pauses due to a purr that interrupts them. Then there is a deeper purr because those fingers are now scratching behind the ears of a very spoiled kitten]
Anyway. There was so much...mayhem today, I figure there's still a lot of cleanup to take care of.
If anyone needs an extra hand, let me know.
This place isn't anyone's home, but while we're stuck here it's the only thing we have to work with. We might as well make the effort.
Nathan would laugh at---
---but I think he'd agree too.
Or he would've. By now.
[ooc; Forward-dated to about an hour post-midnight...also.../KILLS lack of lj notifs... bear with please sob....
EDIT: sreep gaiz, long shift tomorrow/today but back later on! <3 ]