My mom woke me up at 5 am i didn't even know what she was saying to me but i had manage to decipher through my sleep ridden haze that she wanted me to go somewhere with her. So i pull on a pair of jeans grab my keys and stoges and got in the car. We're almost to the nursing home and i still don't understand wtf im doing there. My mom looks at me ( Read more... )

Alright i feel it's time to be straight up and honest with myself . My dad's psychiatrist told me i was a self-destructive underachiever. Well maybe i am, but who really cares, i am being distant i don't know why i am being distant with everyone and maybe even starting fights i shouldn't or maybe people are lashing at me for no reason, but honestly ( Read more... )

to say i feel like shit would be an understatement, i felt miserable all day but i still had to make sure these little savages got fed, today isn't really worth mentioning nothing eventful happened except for my mom waking me up this morning and telling me we needed to have a serious talk which has yet to happen...i wonder if this is about last ( Read more... )

i'm really fucjed up right now so i don't knooow what is even going theough my head right about now but i don't even care no worries right noe i haven't been this fucked up since that one thime me and nat got ripped befor me p[sych class and i had to leace the class before i threw up right there, i really wish missi was on i miss talking to her ( Read more... )

not a damn thing seems to be going my way lately. My plans to go out tonight were fucked, i just found out i lost my scholarship just like that, i mean i know i was fucking around last year but still they didn't send me like a notice or anything they just sent me a letter saying i lost it. Steph and a whole bunch of people at Marymount got some ( Read more... )

i don't know what is going on anymore, Ariel wants me to transfer to USF with him next year in Cali. God help me but im thinking its not such a bad idea unless anyone has a reason i should stay in ny, most of my friends are everywhere but ny. "Give me one reason to stay here and ill turn her back around give me one reason to stay here...."

So melissa called me today and i told her we couldn't be friends because i knew another melissa, melissa of course says who?who? I'll fight her! I'll fight her! then she was asking me when i was getting back cause supposedly she's going to come get me at the airport but melissa said this last time and never showed up not that i waited for her ( Read more... )

this is my top secret journal yes i know it's sad and not that top secret

i think i might be falling in love again but it's not with mangos or noren this time. I don't know but i really like her yeah...don't want to get my hopes up ill probably fuck it up like i always do

***added later***
i don't think it's love yet but there's definitely something there

Me and Ariel just got in we went to some gay club in santurce it was mad fun!!!!!