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so, turns out exams are very nearly over and im not really as happy as i think i should be. i dont know what im going to do in the summer. it feels i have lost my friends to a girl and some revision. they only seem to have time for one another.. and i know its happenned before and it is very much the way of our friendship, but i dont want it to be. cant we all just get along? it just seems such a shame.
in a way its my own fault that i cant socialize with the boy with the girl and her group, becuase that is rosies group and i think you all know about that. it seems to be something im doing a lot, fucking up and losing a whole group of people because of one. almost eliminating them form my source of possible friends. i just dont seem to understand why its always me. oh yeah, whats more my favourite girl friend last night said that she doesnt want to be my friend anymore, which is really sucky. she knows too much about me and she has helped me through so many shit-uations.. even thoutgh i have never met her. yes she is from the internet. im beginning to see the downfalls of myspace. im pretty worried about myself to be honest. im not being melodramatic if i say i havent been happy for months