dear ------
killing time, your gloss on our cigarette, sitting on my passenger seat, watching you order, whats between me and you... theres no security and comfort greater than when your there... i wish i could have been better? maybe if i was smarter, stronger, more handsome, talented, was nicer, more caring, interesting, lovable... though you say thats not it... but maybe... and i guess in the end its your happiness thats what matters and i hope you understand how much i mean that, because i know that ive never been good at communicating how i feel... all i ever wanted was to take care of you... its never easy, but i just dont want to waste your time, i dont wana drive you away... you say we consume each other, everything is there for us, my heart is drowning with waves of you... but at the same time my mind and logic tells me that maybe its just not the right place for us... but why listen to logic? never have anyway... i guess maybe ill have to just keep it under control... and thats just the way it is... i understand what you value most, but then i do know you feel the same and i want to know what your holding out for thats always in the way? theres nothing to fear, and if in fact what we have is that special then why be afraid? i dont need you to match my feelings, i just want you near... i may not be sure what love really is, but i know what i feel surpases what makes sense to me... but then again i could just not know what im talking about... maybe all we need is time... but then again maybe its just not meant to be... but i promise that ill always look out for you... but you'll probably never read this...