Going back to old habits sometimes feels good...

Like now.

I need to get my thoughts together. There seems to always be something missing in my life but I don't know what I can do to make myself feel complete.

"I should know better than anyone ever could

As soon as I let go

Everything falls apart"

Mew is good. I'm ready for summer.

So, I really cannot wait until the day that I won't have to put with my mom any longer.

Sometimes i wonder why i have no feelings and nothing bothers me i'm just like "whatever" about everything. I never know how to put my feelings into exact words. I need adventures and self discovery.

I love hanging out with Brooke and Sara and going to Macon and singing really loud in her car to wierd but good music. This past week has been filled with good times.

I dont know, I'm tired of trying to keep our friendship going. So whatever happens i mean its not my fault since i tried and all. My life is a bit boring but its starting to get better i guess. yeah.. that's all.

I always have high expectations and nothing ever works the way i plan.. i need to learn how to not expect so much...