So to say that this is overdue is an extreme understatement. The best way to do this is chronologically...

After I split with Andrew, I actually spend some time doing my own thing. It was marvelous. Talk about a growing experience!!! I ended up single for a little under 2 years (or there abouts). In the meantime...there was the Rejection of Tommy... ( Read more... )

I am happy. If anyone still even looks at this anymore. My life is good and my friends are amazing. I cant imagine what more there is to say then that.

I really am just a sorry excuse of a human being.

So Proof is over, and so is a lot of other things that were going on ( Read more... )

I've always considered myself adventurous...
Now in the face of change
I am frozen.

Petrified by opportunity.

I got a new job.

1/10 of the work. 75% pay increase. Better benefits. Better opportunity.

Much further away. More hours. No computer access. No dicking around.

Just the facts, maam.

I had a dream last night that i punched her until her face was unrecognizable, it felt like goo beneath my fist. her nose was shattered shards of bone stuck to my knuckles, her mouth a gaping bloody hole...

I smiled.

I am still smiling...

So Andrew and i had a 4 hour conversation that ended in us realizing i needed some time to sort out my head. We agreed we are technically still "seeing each other" but just...Not. I had been going through a real rough patch, as far as feeling disconnected and uncentered, etc. In short, i missed Patrick. But more then that..i was realizing more ( Read more... )

Silly me, having no faith in him, or me, or Us. We sat around and talked yesterday being honest for a change, which was useful and rather quite terrific. we are giving this an honest-go.

my good friend Liam's formula for happiness went :
Hobby / Significant Other / Money
So i guess as it works out....

I am overjoyed.

Good News and Bad News ( Read more... )